My Little Orange Diary

2011-01-15T02:49:00.000-08:00

Dear Orange,

School has started and I am back in hall, once again attending lectures and having meals with my hall friends, back to my usual routine of dance every thursday..
It's indeed a very enjoyable part of my uni life, but at the back of my head something just keep telling me that this is not reality.
Yesterday when I got home, problems that my family members and even my relative are facing just simply reached my hands, and there seems to be many matters unsettled. This is reality right?
Problems are unavoidable, but it really depends on how you view them as they are not necessarily detrimental. Sometimes they pose as a challenge or even a learning experience for us. And I feel that all these I am facing now will in some way or another contribute to my social work career:)

I really envy people who can voice out their feelings well. It is so hard for me to describe my thoughts and emotions to even my closest friends. And it feels terrible when you keep all the mixture of anxiety, fear, anger and sadness everything within you. Although I know when the storm is over, all these negative emotions will clear away, it is still very important to be able to express oneself!!
Really quite frusfrating to not being able to tell others exactly how I feel. And I admit that its a major flaw I have as it sorts of put up a wall/boundary between me and others, as if I am always keeping a distance.
I've gotta work on this! :)

Time to go back to my readings!
Love,
Joy

2011-01-02T01:51:00.000-08:00

Dear Orange,

Today's already the third day of 2011!
The weather is rather bleak now, haha but well, its time to share some thoughts:)
2010 has been a good one, where i got to travel, and also meet many new friends, especially those from Raffles Hall:) I believe that these bonds are long lasting. I also moved a step closer to being a social worker, which I hope that 2011 will give me more and better opportunities for me to work towards this dream of mine.

Now some updates of the previous 2 weeks!
Christmas eve was spent with hall friends:) David, Rohan, Waner, Edmund, Fauzan, then later Sean and Yuekiat.
We dinner ate at Swensons before Rohan drove us back to my house for a sleepover:) I love having friends over at my house heehee coz they can play monopoly with me!
Playing monopoly with them was really fun! Rohan was mega excited, trying to make deals using 10cents coins and by offering to buy cup noodles. HAHA! Really enjoyable.
Dad cooked beehoon for us and we finished playing at approximately 3am.
Some went off to sleep, leaving me edmund david and fauzan watching DVD all the way till about 5am.

Christmas was spent at AhGong's house, then Joyce and JH came to sleepover! Hahah played monopoly again. Then coz i was so tired, i went to sleep first. Joyce and I were chatting halfway when at 12 mn the crazy trio outside threw my bedroom door open and sang me the Happy Birthday song! Hahah! What a surprise huh!:D I was elated of coz:)

Boxing day (my birthday) was spent with family at Bukit batok CSC. Sang Karaoke the entire afternn. Had fun!:) Then Linyan and LEN came to surprise me over dinner with the lovely musical box and awesome hand-sewed and handwritten card:D

Hehe my birthday wish was for everyone to be happy and healthy, and to do well in their studies and work! :DD

MOnday i met up with Xinran to go to the Singapore Art Museum. The exhibit was really cool! It showed the way of life in the city of Pompeii which was buried under volcanic ashes many many years ago after successive volcanic eruptions.
That night, I had dinner with my dearest MS colleagues! Li ying(and her sis), shuling and shuen! Marvellous:D

Wednesday I went shopping at NEX with DG (which we did more talking than shopping). After dinner at Sushi Teh, we headed off to Singapore River for a walk. WOOHHOO it has been long since I last went there. We went into the prettily decorated Fullerton Hotel too! HAHA very pleasant to the eyes:D
We did some reflections and here's my 2011 new year resolutions:
1) To have a healthy lifestyle and get my family and friends to do that too
2) To pull my CAP up to above 3.5. I want to go for Honors year!
3) To dance my heart out:D
4) To take some time to help my sis with her studies.
5) To have a meaningful Social work field placement during the may-july holidays
7) To save up for Australia/holidays
8) To go for OCIP
6) TO LOVE, LAUGH AND GIVE!

p.s. Can someone lighten up the atmosphere please?

2011-01-01T04:04:00.001-08:00

On this first day of 2011, we discovered the most horrible fact that we should have known long ago.
Please treat my loved ones with respect. PERIOD.

2010-12-23T18:57:00.000-08:00

Dear Orange,

Yesterday was really unforgettable! Haha! Nat celebrated my birthday with me and we went to pizza hut for our dinner. Because one of the waiter was holding on to a guitar and offering to play guitar and sing to anyone who request for it, Nat asked him over to sing a Birthday song for me. I was so paiseh!
Hahah and he really sang a R&B style birthday song for me. Haha it was not bad la. So i thanked him. THen the surprises just kept coming!
Suddenly the "Happy Birthday" music was played throughout the whole outlet! And a waitress brought a scoop of icecream with a candle on it to our table. WOAH i was utterly in shock! Haha got people cheer some more!

Haha so i was thanking natalie for taking the silly step to ask the waiter to sing the song for me coz got free ice cream! Well, we thought that it was the end of it. Until.
The manager came and offered to take a photo for the 2 of us. Natalie reluctantly took the picture after much persuasion from the birthday girl:) Minutes later, the manager came over with the developed photograph in a photoframe! OMG i didnt know how to respond to it. Great memories, really!

So me and Nat continued chatting happily while eating our baked rice and pasta. When we were almost finished, another waitress walked over with a balloon sculpture and presented it to me!
Hhaha so i concluded that pizza hut's service is really good:D Very worthwhile meal I had yesterday:D

And the best thing is that my good friend is there to share this memorable moment with me:D

Hehe:D What a happening day yesterday!

Did i mention? Rapunzel is an awesome movie! Its hilarious, and really a well produced fairytale:) Go watch the video of the song "When will my life begin" and you'll know why:D

Today's christmas eve and I am in a really awesome mood:D
"Wherever you go,
No matter what the weather,
always bring your own sunshine."

:) Joy

2010-12-19T19:58:00.001-08:00

Dear Orange,

This whole week was pretty fun-filled and meaningful:) Tuesday and Wednesday was more monotonous because of work. Friday was fun because I got to go to town with Natalie(our yearly christmas time meet-up)! And we even met Waner and Ross for dinner this time round. The lightings wasnt as good as last year's, I feel. But it still felt chrismassy enough:)

Saturday I went to Nat's church at suntec convention hall. It was a youth christmas service and it was wonderful. When we first entered, we were made to walk across this passageway where there was "snow"! Woah we were all really astonished! Better than the one at snow city :)
Pastor Benjamin was the one who addressed us. And he preached about the part of the bible about how Jesus was born and prophesized to live as an equal like us. His name being also Emmanuel, meaning "God with us" and all. Though I am not a christian, I just listened with an open heart. And many things he said was applicable to our lives.
He talked about us being able to change our own destiny. He said that intelligence is nothing compared to wisdom:
"Favor opens the door for us, but wisdom tells us which one to choose."
I feel that religion is just something to guide people in lives. There is no good or bad ones. As long as we believe in it, we may gather strength from this faith to always try to change our lives for the better. I do not believe in being overly immersed or obssessed with it though.

Later that night, I went over to Ryan's house for his christmas party! The rest of our OG were already there by the time I arrived. Haha he really leads a luxurious lifestyle! He has aircon in his living room and he has a real big christmas tree at his front yard! Anyway, the food was awesome! Turkey, fries, chocolate cookies, expensive Royce chocolate, logcake.. WOAH! Really shiokk! HAha. So we stayed around and slacked abit, watched tv until 11plus and we went home.

And on Sunday(yesterday), a few of our OG people met again! We went to ECP to cycle:D
It was really great time spent and the weather was marvellous:) We cycled all the way from ECP to changi village. On the way, there were airplanes, rivers, nice trees, traffic lights(irritating), the breeze, and the awesome company:) We ate the famous nasilemak at changi village and drank weird tasting coconut juice! The journey back was damn tiring! Haha but we made it in the end!
Hanged around at the beach for a while until Ryan's dad came and picked us up. Haha it was epic coz we had to squeeze 5 of us at the back of the car!:D

YaY AWESOME! Great company makes a great day:)

Love,
Joy

2010-12-17T07:19:00.000-08:00

Dear Orange,

I went to IMH with Darrell and his Ngee Ann friends yesterday! Made new friends!:) Katherine, Yan zong, Marcus and Jeremy( who is extra friendly and talkative) haha!

THats beside the point. Hhaha the best thing is that we did caroling at a few wards in the hospital:) My first time, it was fun! Let me describe my trip in detail!
When we reached there, this uncle who was walking out from the outpatient clinic approached us and started singing really loudly: "We will we will rock you!" Lol! And severeal other songs. One of the girls was so shocked she teared and Jeremy responded the uncle with a "Yo!" The others were either trying to ignore him or trying to contain their laughter. Its really interesting to see how we ourselves react to these mentally ill patients.
Perharps when we say that such and such an experience helps us to understand them, we omit the important part: Dealing with these people helps us understand ourselves.

Later when we entered the wards, I was amazed to find out how we were very warmly greeted by the patients there! They were already standing at the door clapping at our arrival, waving to us and some even with handshakes:) I was expecting to find the patients living in their own world, making weird noises or simply just being very hostile. I guess we should never be too early to judge:)
After we performed, an aunty even asked everyone in the room to thank us! Haha they are all really very cute! And its easy to communicate with them also!:) I was talking to this malay aunty and before i left, she grabbed hold of my hand very tightly and asked me not to forget her. I felt so bad:(

Hmm, so funny people. THere was this female, she loves to sing, so Jeremy played the guitar for her so that she can sing! If you dont listen carefully, you might think that she is just making weird noises, but actually, there's a very nice tune behind it!:) Then theres this uncle who made one of the guys play the guitar and he sang this christian song to all of us. He was grinning from ear to ear by the time he finished singing! The guy made his day man!:D

Yep, so actually, if everyone gets a chance to visit imh, there probably wouldnt be this public fear of the mentally ill! Not all of them are psychotic, they are humans like me and you, they have feelings too!:)
I am reading this book titled "Born Twice" by Giuseppe Pontiggia, and many things that he mentioned struck me. He said ,"When we're hurt by diverstiy, our first reaction is to deny its existence, not to accept it."
THat is what leads to the creation of what deviates from the norm.
He then said,"Our need for the norm, if shooed away from the door, returns to menace us at the window. It's not by denying the existence of difference that we can fight it, but by modifying our image of the norm."

It is not only in the way the society discriminates against the mentally-illed, but also the disabled, migrant workers, act convicts, the critically ill... Too many to list! THese stereotypes and social stigmatization can really deeply harm the victims and impede their progress in our society.
We really need to change the norm!
Ok this is where I will end my reflections part.

Anyway, after the IMH visit, I went to my grandpa's house. He claimed that its his chinese birthday and got Ida to cook dinner for us! But it wasnt his birthday at all :( well, but in the end we still cut the cake, and he even gave us Angpow!
None of us dared to tell him that it wasnt his birthday. Is he like having delusions or is it just coz he wanted to see us? I am really puzzled!

Today I went to town with Nat! Bought christmas presents:) And then met waner and ross for dinner. After dinner the 4 of us went to walk on the streets. THe deco at CK Tangs really deserves to be awarded the best!:D

Looking forward to tomorrow! Gonna go for Nat's church service, then off to Ryan's party:)
Gtg, Ciao
Love,
Joy

2010-12-09T18:21:00.000-08:00

Dear Orange,

I am quite glad I went down to gugu's house yesterday. Or else she probably wouldnt know exactly what to do when the time comes. And I am glad I helped her with the financial forms she needed to fill up, if not nothing will be done.
I was really afraid yesterday when I saw Gu Zhang gasp for breath. He was extraordinarily alert as well. How long can someone survive without food? My dad says 9days. Up till yesterday, its the 3rd day i think. I hope that when the time comes, everyone will be there to give my aunt their fullest support!

Love,
Joy

2010-12-08T20:45:00.001-08:00

Dear Orange,

WHYWHYWHY?? I know that I shouldnt be asking this, but how can life be so cruel towards people who deserved much better?
When I looked at my aunt in the eye, I really couldnt help it but felt really upset. In me, I no longer feel merely sympathy, because I see strength in her despite her shag appearance. This is the willpower, the courage, and the obligation she had towards her husband and children. I really admire her for that.
On the other hand, the fear and the sense of lost I felt for her was immense. What if my uncle pass away, what is she going to do? She definitely will break down emotionally and physically. Who's going to take care of her 2 kids then? Who will be there 24/7 to support her? What about the household finances?
Millions of questions are forming in my head right now.

What if it happens to me? What will I do if I were her? Would I be as strong as her?
Maybe I shouldnt be asking so many questions.

What is most important is that I should do whatever I can to help her, and I am going to do just that now!:)

Ciaos,
Joy

2010-12-04T08:12:00.000-08:00

Dear Orange,
This week has been pretty hectic for me. HAHA in a good sense. Meaning that i got to meet up with many of my friends:) On thurs, i went with Waner to shop at Bugis. Bought a new leggings and 2 new tops! WOOHOO success!:D
I spent my Friday morning to afternoon with JJQ, Nat and LY! WOOTS! We ate Ding Tai Feng for lunch before we went to watch Harry Potter and the deathly hallows part 1. The movie was good!:) However, it was really dark all the way, slightly horrifying. I felt a sense of enlightenment when i saw the logo; the one with the stone, invisible cloak and the most powerful wand that belonged to Dumbledore! Hahah so this is what HP will need to defeat Voldermort. I havent read the book, so I wouldnt know what will happen next. Good also la, haha keep me in suspense! Am looking forward to the second part already:D

At 4pm I met DG at outram for his blood donation. Really scary, I swear I will faint if I have seen the big needle. I am felt a sense of satisfaction for him also, coz it was his first time:) Anyway, after donation we went to walk around chinatown for 2 hrs before we went home.

Saturday morning was really really cold. Met LY at 9.30 for jobapplication at RWS. RWS totally looks like Genting!! COOL! The staff at MICE hotel was really nice to us too:)
In the evening, met A02 people for steamboat dinner. HAha after today, I realised that I am really of very high maintanence fee! I ate alot alot! Like 10 scallops and 20 prawns? LOL You ought to see the pile of food I savoured! Even after all the guys KO, i was still eating. Super man! Worth it:D We ate dessert after that. Was awesome too:D
Yay i am quite glad I got quite a number of things done today:)

Tomorrow will be family dinner at chinatown which I am looking foward to! But on a sidenote, I'll need to go jogging tmr mornign with Darrell to make myself less sinful!:x

Ok will update soon!
Love,
Joy

2010-12-01T07:00:00.000-08:00

Dear Orange,
The start of this week marks the official beginning of holiday fun:) Today's the first of Decmeber and I heard the church bell rang at 12 noon just now. In a blink of an eye. A semester had passed, and that marks the very first phase of my Uni life! Monday and yesterday were awesome time spent after exams!
Went to Fz's room to slack with david and edmund after dinner. Played "Left for Dead" on Fz's laptop. OMG that game scares me. The zombies made me want to run away!! Hahah, on a sidenote, we watched 3 episodes of "How I met your mother" after that. Damn funny! HAha the favourite game of all time, "Have you met..Ted?" HAHA!!

Around 10pm me, waner,fz,kweky,edmund and chernping set off to explore the schooL! Went to engine and Fass:) It was pretty fun. THe best part was the discovery of the huge satellite at the top of the "stairway to heaven". It detected us the moment we reached the top. Had this red spot light and tilted towards our direction. Oh man. That moment i ran down the stairs for fear of getting shot down by some bullets. Embarrassing la!:( Ok anyway, we continued past the satellite and walked down a deserted kent ridge drive. There was a few old houses along the way. INTERESTING!
Headed back to hall for super after 2 hrs of adventure.
Waner and I played monopoly and HT-HT till we fell asleep around 3 plus:) Love my roomie to the max!

Tuesday was a wonderful time spent in Town with my dearest OG mates!
Me and Waner reached far east around 12 plus. Ate then met Ying to shop. We shopped till 4plus, i finally bought a new pair of shoes!!!:) Then we headed to ION. David came first. Then followed by Ryan, Edmund, Kweky, Sean and Fauzan. We then went in search for food.
Finally settled at fish&Co. Stanford, Yk and Jovian joined us later. WOOHOO! Love the food and the company:)
After that, we walked down the streets of Orchard Road:) This year's christmas lightings was quite disappointing. I couldnt feel the festive mood yet. Nevertheless it was great to be there with friends:)
Took bus back to hall with David, Kweky, yk and stanford:) We had supper! Keep eating la!>.<

Wednesday morning i ate breakfast with a few of my OG ppl. There was relly an overwhelming supply of food and little ppl around. So naturally the shua ka aunty was exceptionally nice to us!:) Gave us extra food and all. What a good start:D
After breakfast went for a morning walk with David. Great time spent:)
Then sis came to pick me up! YAY finally evcuated the room. Hhaha, but starting to feel a bit of withdrawal symptom already!
I LOVE SIS! Although there may be some things we disagree on, I am definitely not against you yea! It's great to be at home, finally:)

Next Monday's crucial, so pray hard that everything will be fine!!! (11:11 comes in handy)Haha:D

My most loved OG!:)

P.s.The spaces between your fingers were created so that another's could fill them in:)

Love,
Joy

2010-11-28T20:29:00.000-08:00

Dear Orange,

The end of exams marks the beginning of an awesome holiday. Although I dont get to go on a holiday this holiday(:D), there are still plenty of things I can do in Singapore.
Over the weekends, I went to BUkit Timah hill with LY and went Vivo shop with my sis. Bought a new canon camera(like finally after more than half a year!!) at Sitex. Sunday night was spent at my Ah Gong's house. My cousins are going to Taiwan for holidays!!
Christmas is coming! My birthday is coming too!!:D I am so excited about the lightings and christams music. Getting in the festive mood man:)
"Santa Claus is coming to Town~~"
Heehee

On a side note, the time of the year is here too. I hope to be in the pink of health!
Love,
Joy

2010-11-22T01:34:00.000-08:00

Dear Orange,
I am so bored from studying!!!! 4 more days and it will be over. Hhaha. Actually it doesnt make a lot of difference since I didnt really study very hard.

Look: Some pretty pictures:)

Here's a funny one.

My first time buying potato chips from the vending machine in the library, and guess what. It got stuck halfway!!!=.=

Love,
Joy

2010-11-10T02:00:00.001-08:00

How do i get rid of these thoughts in my head? Distractions.
-Blank-
Joy@central library

2010-11-08T05:21:00.000-08:00

Dear Orange,

I miss being with my family everyday!:(

I must confess at times, I am either too busy with my work or having so much fun with my friends that I forget about my family. Forget to contact my mum for a few days, make her worried. I am a guilty daughter and a not-so-caring sister:(

And thus, I was really glad that we had a family gathering at Ah Gong's on Deevapali!:D AWESOME meeting my relatives and spending time with them. My primary school cousin has anger management problem, but his parents arent doing much about it. I've gotta do something!

Saturday night my OG went out for supper at Laupasat! We also mangaged to eat the famous Tau Huey at Rochor Road:) Great time spent, partly coz of the good food, i have to admit:) At about 1am, we then split into 2 groups. David drove me, stan and Yk home:)

Sunday was mugging day with Xin Tai Ruan. HAHA. Fruitful time spent on revision too:)

Oh did I mention that I've been super addicted to pool recently? I've been playing it every other night last week. The record was on Thursday when me sm stan sebas played till 4 plus! Haha I will stop this till after exams!

Oh yes, I must proclaim my love for dance once again, and the wonderful room sessions that we dancers always have:)

Now its time to go back to your textbook, isnt it? CHAN JIA MIN! Hhaha:D

I havent had a good chat with my sis and bro for almost 2 weeks already!

Love,
Joy

2010-11-02T05:47:00.001-07:00

Dear Orange!

Its time to do some sharing again:)
THe topic for today's social work lecture was on disability. The first qn that Dr Nair asked was: "When I say disability, what do you think of?"
The first thing that came to my mind was "impairment and a lack of something". Some others suggested "wheelchair bound, handicap, mentally ill".
But really, the types of disability that the society recognises go way beyond all these.
An individual is disabled when an impairment(loss of physical body parts or abnormality) restricts him/her from carrying out normal activities independently.
Disability affects 10-15% of a nation's population!
In Singapore 1 in 7 children is born with learning disability!
I am shocked that the morbidity rates are so high!

There is an urgent need to do something. The guest speaker of today ended with another qn, " What difference can social workers make?"
Personally I feel that the issues that needs to be addressed are:
1) Making places accessible for those with physical disability(wheel chair bound)

2) Reduce social stigmatization!! (create a culture not of handicap, but one that is enabling, accepting,with care and concern for the disabled.)

3) Support group for the disabled,where they can meet other people they can relate better to. (push for interaction, to boost their self-esteem, to motivate)

4) Protect the disabled; prevent exploitation, bullying and victimisation. Be gracious towards them. (for dementia patients,mentally ill, down syndrome)

5) Advocate for services to cater to specific groups of disability (medical care, education, skills training, help them seek employment)-->empower them; disabled can be useful to our society too!

6) Identify them and intervene early.(Education is important to let families with disabled people become aware of the resources available in the community)

7) Strengthen these families, family support is crucial!

How can we successfully integrate people with disabilities into our society? Is it ever possible to 'normalise' them?
I feel that Singapore really needs a nation-wide event(e.g. An "I CAN" campaign to advocate for equal social rights together with people with disabilities) to bring to light the possibilities that disabled people can create if our society have been more inclusive.

SEE! People with disabilities can play and do things like you and me!

Social worker's role is really to step in to empower and encourage them, to make them and others see what they can actually do and achieve. They are humans like us! I think the major obstacle is still how we as members of the society react towards them. I understand that there are many types of disabilities and the general public would not have background knowledge of all of them, and this may end up with stereotyping, sometimes behaving insensitively towards them.
I shall ponder more on how to improve this! Changing of attitudes and perception needs time I guess!

One thing I need to constantly remind myself is that I shouldnt sympathise with the person, but empathise.

Even if it is the most insignificant, quietest or a public enemy, they have something to say about their lives. Lend a listening ear to them once in a while!:)

Hope i didnt bore you orange! haha. How i wish i put in more of my own views and thoughts for my portfolio! Think i'll fail it:(

Love, Joy

2010-10-22T08:19:00.000-07:00

This week is ultra uber draining for me! 2 papers on consecutive days! Well, glad that its over:) But theres more to come... for the next 1 month. CUIiii-ness:(

Dance and suppers are the best outlets of stress. Halloween dance is gonna be awesome! Although i admit that i have a natural talent for acting(haha), it sooooo uncomfortable to act sexxxayyy! WOOHOO!!! AHH hope i dont embarrass myself. And jiayou Ethan! Haha:D

Another awesome event of the week was the family violence symphosium held by PAVE and CSDA. It was a great time spent and I learnt alot more about trends and reasons for domestic violence and the importance of community collaboration and networking. Hehe you peeps probably wouldnt understand. Anywae, there was good food and also a lovely environment of being around social workers and other working professionals:D

On a side note, I've finally decided that i will not continue to stay in hall. I dont want to be away from home and not be aware immed of the things that happened. I dont want to be so preoccupied with hall and school activities that I cannot find time to speak to mummy. And I dont want to be sleeping so late its terrible for my health. Haiz, the only thing that is hard to part with is dance. And of course the attatchments I have formed with my many friends in RH!

And today was quite a bad start. I received some upsetting msges. Talked to sis in the afternn bout navin and her r/s. She was upset, he wasnt happy either. Hope I helped them abit, coz i see that theres more or less peace now.
My take is that when a r/s gets manipulative(when each party is overly dominant/involved in the other's life, and there is no longer private space or freedom, things will only go downhill. It is equally essential not to overlook differences in perspectives, personailities and goals because such lack of an understanding or respect for each other's decision may make things worse.
Love cannot be blind:)

Love you sis:)

Stay pretty and healthy please mum:D <333

P.s Tmr gonna singgg!
Love,
Joy

2010-10-17T08:59:00.000-07:00

Lets keep going forward and embrace every new day with a open heart:)

2010-10-15T08:38:00.000-07:00

Dear Orange,
Time for another reflection sessioN! First the good news. I didnt do as badly in my mid term exams as i thought:) So i rewarded myself with an awesome dinner with sebas n david! We had white horfun with dou ya(both ends cut off!), XO beehoon and oily chicken with nice chilli. HAHA. We continued our food expedition to the icecream place at sunsetway. Woah the couch was so comfortable i swear i can fall asleep there! JJQ joined us too:D

Now that i am back in hall, reality caught up with me again:( I have so much work to do!! But I want to go home:((( Enough of procrastinating JM! The reason why I am blogging is to share some insights i have to the social work profession. The department invitied a medical social worker to speak to us today!
COntrary to what I've always thought, social workers need outlets to vent their emotions and frusfrations too. Thats great news for me:) It's good to know that social workers can cry like any other human in the work context. I really cannot imagine bottling up all my unhappiness and let it accumulate throughout the years. Its wonderful to get to hear from all these inspiring social workers, and i really can imagine myself gaining all that satisfaction i want in life(not in monetary terms)!
This is so important to me, yet i somehow have this fear about not having the capability and capacity to help people like how successful social workers in the field did. What if after I am euqipped with the knowledge and skills, but ultimately i dont have the x-factor/ am not cut out for social work?
I can see my path, but it looks so rocky, I am afraid i'll fall. Hahah but come to think of it maybe if I am a little more confident, I can manouvre through it more steadily. And even if i fall, there'll definitely be helping hands around me to push me on. YeP! Since I've decided that this is my career path, I shouldnt look back. The only way is forward!:D

Hhaha i am grateful that my mind is tuned in such a way that I almost always have happy thoughts:D

so noe comes the unhappy one: I have so much work to dooooo!!!!!!:(

gtg.
Love,joy:)

2010-10-11T06:14:00.000-07:00

My mum's a superwoman. I wanna grow up to be like her!
<3 you, mummy:)

2010-10-09T07:44:00.000-07:00

Dearest Orange,
I achieved 2 first-times this week!
1) Ran from RH to PGP and back + Sprint 5 times up a >100m slope with RH Handball
2) Clubbing at St James powerhouse + Sleepover at RH!
:D

Show u a glimpse of what its like in the club:

THough i dislike the fact that the place is more squeezy than peak hour MRT and stinks more than my own shit, i enjoyed the blast of the music!

In my room before clubbing:)

YAY thanks to LY for the pretty make-up. Guess what, I just realised that my eyelashes are long!:D

At Prata SHop after clubbing:D

We chatted till we fell asleep on waner's and my bed and woke up 10plus the following morning for breakfast@Macs.
Its grweat to have my jie mei's company at night even though half the time i was trying not to fall off the bed HAHA!

Was chatting with a dance senior over supper on Thursday and alot of things he said struck me. To summarise,
1)in life, in order to move on, we must learn to forgive ourselves instead of constanly reminding ourselves of the mistakes we make because no one remembers our own mistakes more than we do.
2)There are certain things in life which dont give us a second chance. Therefore we need to GAN GAN grab hold of them! But when its time to let go, let go.
3)You'll only last long in a r/s if both parties can visualise being with the other over the next 5, 10 , 20 or even 50 years.
I think its easier to visualise a long-term friendship though:) Y do i have so little faith in r/s? :x

I feel like singing and shopping! 2 ASSES haha. next week shall be it:D

<3, Joy

2010-10-05T22:07:00.000-07:00

"Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars? I can really use a wish right now, wish right now, wish right now..."

Dear Orange,
woke up at 11am today! WOOHOO I dont feel lethargic anymore! Yesterday was both bitter and sweet. Bitter coz of the stupid history test that made me panick like crazy and make a mess of myself in the library O.O. I am sick of projects, readings and essays too! :( My brain's just not working anymore and thus yesterday was stoning day for me.

But well, every valley comes with a peak. It's great to have a balance of activities and friends to encourage me along! So my bad day was complemented with my most beloved dance, and buying my pair of shoes:D. Not to forget LEN, Nat, "my beloved sis" and my awesome neighbours in RH who brightened up my day haha.

Guess what! Tonight will be first-time clubbing day for me, ly,len n sh! Hope it'll be fun? Dont know what to expect? heehee

gtg back to my readingsss ahhh

love,
joy

2010-10-02T23:29:00.000-07:00

Woohoo orange!

Just wanted to share that I am so glad to have many primary school friends living in my neighbourhood. We had pepperlunch today at IMM. A short but fruitful 2 hrs spent on catching up:) I must make an effort to arrange more of such gatherings.
Next Sunday will be basketball! Hopefully we will have our full strength on that day.

P.s.Oh no i just bathed before i went out and now my hair stinks of the smoke from cooking the chicken just nowww

Joy

our journey

2010-10-02T08:00:00.000-07:00

"Life's a journey, don't forget to unpack."
Dear Orange,
A bad habit of mine is that i always like to keep myself occupied with as many activities as possible. From cca, to gatherings, to studies, to even making time to meet other people's schedules. I want everything that life offers, I want to stretch my life to the fullest. Through the process, I learn, i grow, i have fun, i become stressed, i become emotional.. it seems that life is so happening.
But sometimes everything is just so packed that i realise that I dont have time for myself. Solitude, time to take a breather, time to reflect. This is really what the statement above is trying to remind us. While planning and going through this journey, do we care to stop and take time to savour the scenery around us?
I guess this is something for me to think about.

Anyways, I am really grateful for this 1 week e-learning break that I have! I hope I do make full use of it to catch up with my studies, to meet up with my friends and to TAKE A BREAK!
Time passes so fast! In the blink of an eye this sem will come to an end and i'll have to pack up and leave RH. I really do love the people and the environment in RH! I do really wish that I have the finances to stay for the whole year, but I believe that it would be wiser if i save up the thousand plus for my exchange programme to Hong Kong. YEP! I have to keep looking forward!:)

I'll probably blog again sometime next week. Gtg go now though.

Love,
Joy

2010-09-11T23:33:00.000-07:00

Dearest sweetest orange,
i've neglected you since the start of uni. AS much theres a lot to be said, i will leave it for another time yea! hall life has been awesome! many new adventures,experiences and also friendship:) 3 cheers!
However i must admit that uni is not a breeze like what others describe it as. struggling with my work man! jiayou joy!

love u orange,
will be back sooooon!

quotes

2010-07-20T21:22:00.000-07:00

Dearest Orange,

This post shall be one for us to learn and reboot ourselves k! Quotes keep me going, what about u?:D

I personally define quotes as strings of powerful words that is motivational and often a constant reminder of the simplest logic in life that we fail to see or understand in times of distress.
I am not one who open up myself easily to share with others my problems although i do love to share with others my joy. I know this is not a good thing, but well, when i am feeling low, I'll just google and read some quotes. YEA MAN.
They tell me how awesome my life is and that despite the many small waves that keep pushing me offshore, if I dont give up, i'll definitely be able to swim back to land. Heehee simple analogy right?

Yep thats the key, think simple, be satisfied. Thats my life motto:) Just like my dad, happy go lucky, but still happy right? Some may say that such an aimless life without major goals to work towards is meaningless. HOwever its not that we dont work towards anything, just that the things that we want are within our reach, not always within our comfort zone, but something that easily satisfies. Like, a simple meal together as a family, a chit chat with an old friend, being someone whom people will feel comfortable to confide in, and even extending a helping hand to a stranger. These may sound obiang, but i feel that a lot of people nowadays are too ambitious and thirsty for achievements that they lose themselves, and neglect the important people and things around them.
Dont get me wrong, i am not encouraging people to give up on their dreams, and just sit back and relax and be satisfied with life. The main point is not to compare yourself too often with someone greater as u'll end up feeling miserable. No big apartment to live in, no family car, never take aeroplane before? Its alright, count your blessings and not count other people's.
Being satisfied, other than referring to the the current moment, alot of this satisfaction is also derived from fragments of the past. Memories play an important part of my life:) Although i wish moments like those never went away, we all know that time never stop for us. That is when i'll think of this quote:
"Dont cry because it's over, smile because it happened." :)

So keep running! Chase for more wonderful and unforgetful moments to share with significant people in your life:D

Love,
Joy

2010-07-15T01:08:00.000-07:00

Dear Orange,
I realised that i missed out the whole part about my sunway lagoon trip with beloved Erning,Linyan and Jianqing. And also the steamboat dinner at my house together with Sohhwee. Basically, it was a great time spent on catching up and having fun:) The best thing about sunway lagoon is the water slides. Really:D

Anyway, last Saturday, Jeffrey treated us to a buffet dinner at Pan Pacific Hotel's Global Kitchen to celebrate Karen's birthday. Its damn cool! The whole place is really pretty and the dessert is the main highlight of the buffet:D
Ok should show you some pretty pictures, and because I realised those from my previous posts are really small, heres some bigger photos.

I can never resist the temptations of cakes and puddings!

This is my first time eating fondue!! With marshmellows and strawberry:D It was so fun preparing it!

Other than the food, I musnt forget the toilet HAHA

And the elegant interior of the hotel, as well as the bling bling lift

Finally, 2 of artworks that i like.

Hahah this whole post is full of me fantasizing about the hotel. Well, although the dinner seemed quite a joyous occassion on the surface, in fact many unhappy and dramatic things have happened at my work place recently. Really let me see through the ugly nature of human beings, and also the good side of the supposedly "bad guy". Hope things will settle down soon!

Anyway, I'm starting to dance again! YAY YAY will be performing for Raffles Hall rag day. WOOHOO. Have practice later!! So tired after QET test and shopping for gift box!

Hmm i have alot of other things I want to say but am unable to summarise effectively now, so i'll leave it for the next post:)

Love,
JOY

Many first times

2010-07-09T21:44:00.000-07:00

Dearest Orange!
Odac'10 was AWESOME! The best camp ever! HAHHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA:DD I encountered alot of first times within this 5days 4 nights. First time meeting people in nus, first time sleeping in tents, first time experiencing tent floods,first time sleeping under the stars at west coast park, first time night cycling and dragon boating! First time eating cheese prata with the least amount of cheese,first time climbing mountain, first time cooking maggimee with sardines using masstins(actually i ate more than i cook), first time experiencing a blackout in malaysia,first time using the most destructive army insect repellant, first time having campfire without fire, first time walking back to nus from hortpark at the most unearthly hour.

WOW i cannot believe i made it alive man! But all thanks to my friends from coffeetiam,and also the seniors and other campmates, everyone encouraging each other along, and helping each other out:) When i realise my own torch light is so lousy that i cannot see clearly at night, there's always a powerful torch guiding our way through. Our most frequented games throughout the camp was "Polar Bear" and "chuckie chuckie"! HAHA Damn funn!! We also had HTHT(heart to heart talk) together with the guys which failed, as we practically end up talking about eating the grossest food on earth. But the one with the girls was okay:)

My best buddy in camp's HanHan! We click super well together HAHA, so well that the others thought we are old friends:) We sang, cheered and got really high together hehe! Shes really funny though, claims that she is traditional but behave totally the opposite:D

me and hanhan

One of our Gl, xiuling surprisingly share the same interest as me! That is for wildlife and the environment, and she was present during the wear i co-organised envirofest! She's a really loud and fun friend to be with!:D
Coincidentally, i also met my RVDS senior Qian Ning and her sis, Qian Wei in coffetiam! HAHA they are really a great pair of sister, both physically strong:)
Then theres Natasha and Angela toO!!! Both pair of Natasha's shoes were spoilt during the camp haha really very suay. And Angela has the amazing skill of stuffing alot alot alot of marshmellows in her mouth!!!!!!

Then our group's guys,
Most importantly, uncle leonard whos the one who opened coffeetiam! His hobby is drinking coffee at coffeetiams with his friend. His favourite phrases are, "I dont know" and "Good good". HAhah although a lot of times we ask him about the itinery and stuff he'll say "I dont know," but we really feel that he is a great listener and entertainer:D
The second best entertainer is Andy! HAHAHAHAHA i can still laugh at his "shaggy dog" story up till now:D And he really is at risk of getting breast cancer coz he always am chio!
Then we have our 2 best buddies Gurgan and Jiayang. When i want to know about the soccer scores, i'll go to them. Their favourite qn is traffic light=.=
Finally, our parents! Hakeem daddy and Yan shun mummy hahah! They did gay dance for the Miss Oac 2010 contest:D They really make a good pair la. Cannot play polar bear with Hakeem coz hes always very deceiving. And Yanshun is my rv plus NJ senior!! After his guidance during mountain climbing, I feel confident that I can conquer mountains in the future!
A few grp shots:

Okay now a preview of the whole camp!:D

Started off with a small race around the school, these were some of the tasks we had to complete:)

Then we reached ECP and pitched our tents before sitting at the breakwaters to eat chicken rice for dinner.

Then off to night cycling! From 9plus all the way to 4plus in the morning:D

6plus am.This is in a shelter at ECP when the storm came haha we all evacuated from our tents one by one, barely slept!!!:( But really fun holding that blue sheet up tgth to block off the rain.

Day 2 dragon boating, cannot believe we can be so strong!

The morning after waking up at WCP, outside the MACs

We travelled in this sauna bus to Gunung Lambak upon reaching Johor.

We pitched our tents in this "jungle" and were practically feeding mosquitoes while doing so:( That's where all of Andy's ointment and repellant came in really useful! Thanks man:DD

We attempted climbing the first time, but unfortunately, convectional rain!:( So stopped not even halfway for nearly 1 hr at this shelter. Haaha but the rain never fail to dampen our mood! We continued playing polar bear and "Have you ever?":DD

See! It flooded again after the rain, so we moved our tents to the carpark, then started cooking. And unfortunately, the second thunderstorm came and this time, we fled to the big hall near the resort. Guess what, it doesnt end here. Then came the blackout. even the guys got a shock. Nevertheless, we kept each other company, continued chatting and playing games:) The guys even sang army songs haha NICE

And the following day, we finally succeded on climbing up to the summit!!! YAY! The scenery's great! I felt like i was floating on the clouds heehee. The descent was tricky and challenging, but I really enjoyed it! So cool:D Our teamwork really pulled off:) The guys did a great job to guide and save us girls! YAY GO COFFETIAM

Then it was finally back to NUS. This is our campfire night, we had it at the Henderson waves:) The seniors made the hottest and warmest campfire I've ever had! Those shots was that of our group item. HAHA really cui. We had a skid, then danced sorry sorry.

See! THis is the highlight of the night! Miss Oac contest:D Yan de bu nana, Mary and Esther hahaha

Hahah our group's heroine! WOOHOOOO

Last but not least, Goddess and Uncle Leonard, our dearest GL. Must really thank Goddess for looking out for me during night cycling:D

Uncle Leonard: Lim ah Lim ah Lim!

WoW this must have been the longest post ever. My hand is aching now! I'll always remember OAC'10:) Its a great success, thanks to all the wonderful people!

love, Joy

2010-06-19T19:59:00.000-07:00

Dear Orange,
Fifa has been really unexpected and some matches were rather disappointing thus far. England lao kui!!! Then New Zealand's like a black horse. The USA Vs Slovenia match was not bad though:) Love the USA fighting spirit. And best thing is my dad bet 2-2 and he won! HAHAHA

FIFA FRENZY!!

Yesterday my class went Marche at vivocity to eat dinner. It was my first time!! And im really amazed at how this Swiss restaurant works! Each of us had a card to tap(which registers the cost of the items we bought). Me, waner, ying and sarah visited 2 of the stations mainly the presttie(i forgot how to spell) and the desserts. Hhehe i was grinning from ear to ear. Shit i know im a noob but i love that place!! The guys ate crepes. And then yx and zf joined us abit ard 7plus. Hhaha they ate smth that looked like youtiao.

me and my lamp n the presttie:)

pretty ying and act cute waner>.<

And also beautiful sarah who blends totally into the environment! I hope things will be awesome for her in London:D

Finally, my fruit cake with my favourite lamp haha!

We went to daiso and giant with the guys after dinner(so uncle right), and then left for home:) had a great time!

Oh manzz counting down, another 2 days to my KL-Sunway lagoon trip! WOOHOO. IM SO EXCITED!

love,
Joy

2010-06-16T06:45:00.000-07:00

Manzz Orange

I'm so into fifa! Just now me n my dad were watching the Honduras VS Chile match and guess what stupid remarks my dad made?

He looked at the Honduras coach and said : "Obama ah?"
Hahahhaha I do agree that they look similar in some ways.
Then he looked at one of the players and commented that the person's hair can be used to mop the floor=.=

Anywae, Chile played well and really really fast.

Looking forward to Spain and Switzerland's match later!! Hope it'll be a good one:)

Love,
Joy

2010-06-14T07:25:00.000-07:00

Dear orange,
Yesterday was a crazzyy day spent with my family! We spent 4 hrs in the ktv room singing, shouting, dancing and cheering with every songs we sang. The best thing was that AH Gu, our VIP came!! And we were all so elated that he actually took the mic to sing:D Er Yi was really over the moon. This was the first time in ktv i sang songs in so many languages n dialect. I seriously enjoyed myself tremendously! The last song, "DANCING QUEEN" really made us all super high:D

After singing, i went to play abit of pool with my uncle. Ai ya, this i noe im not really gd in. But still, i got some pointers, right:)

Finally came the sumptous 9 course dinner!!!!! I love the appetiser, the fish and the dessert. YUM And mostly, i enjoyed the time i spent with these lovely ppl!:DDD WOOHOO

P.S i found a 8cm spider at my bedside. gtg run

JM is so blessed:)

love, joy

2010-06-06T04:51:00.000-07:00

Orange!
Yippeee the 4 new aircons are already installed in my house!!:D What a blessing. After a long day, last night we had canadian pizza for supper!

ChiANG Chiang! >>>

Anyway, since the aircon was installed, I've been waking up at dawn everyday for unknown reasons. The worst was the nightmare I had during the second night. The thing freaked me out. Haha Nat says the only person who can save me is JESUS.
...

Working part-part time is great! That leaves me with much free time to do things i want to. I've just finished Jodi Picoult's "My Sister's Keeper". The twist in the ending left me speechless. However there were alot to learn about contradictions in human emotions and actions in the book:)
I'm now on a detective book! Pretty thrilling.

Besides reading, I've been cooking as well!

This is noodles with veg in carrot&potato soup:D

And this second meal is one with combined effort o!

My dad prepared the chye sim. My bro prepared the fish. And me the eggs and long bean!Yum yum! It took us one and a half hour to prepare and cook! HAha great team work guys:D
Anyway, my mum doesnt cook. LOL

P.S I'm looking forward to the next few weeks! Will update again soon:))

Love,
Joy

pictorial

2010-06-02T09:12:00.000-07:00

YOOoo Orange and peeps,

Today is awesome!
Yesterday was marvellous,
Tomorrow will be fantastic!

A second, a shooting star flashes past the sky. The next, fairy godmother appears and grant a wish. How perfect.

No thats not the point.

Can you see that i am trying to minimise the use of words?

Meleka Perenakan lunch:)

The big silver pot they used to contain the rice was really unique! And that lunch was extremely delicious and well received by us probably because we were all starving by the time we reached the Nonya restaurant!

We then went on to visit the tourist attractions and here is my favourite, a Dutch graveyard...

Heard from the tour guide that the roof of this building was later removed when the british took over Meleka. Damn cool i love the architecture and the many stories behind it:D

Embrace and inhale! Holidays are just so irresitably enjoyable!

Typical pose of a tourist

Here's a brief glimpse of 2 of my lovely colleagues!

Not including the one who sang songs with me throughout the whole bus journey!:D

Last Sunday, my mum finally bought a microwave oven! We had afternoon tea at Secret Recipe too:)

On Monday was my official last day of work:(
Karen stayed almost the whole day and thus we all didnt get to eat dinner. At 9plus when she left, we gobbled down Ramley Burgers, Kueh tu tu and tapioca cake from the pasr malam outside. Thanks Liying and Xin Ni for the treat!!! LOL

As the photos above suggest, today i went to ECP with Nat! I taught her how to cycle! And she did really well! Nat is awesome:D
At 6plus, we settles down by the seaside to rest. Wonderful weather! The cooling breeze and the lovely clouds in the vast blue sky made me feel like this really minute object in this humongous world.

THe world upside down:x

We sat and just looked up at the sky and chatted till the sky turned dark. Then nat started taking pictures of the stars. Hhaha my silly girlfriend.

How i wished beautiful moments like this linger longer.

Well.. all good things come to an end.

Did i tell you i appeared on advertisement? XD

An uncle at the bicycle kiosk absurdly said to me: "Keep smiling girl".
Hahah i wanted to reply him that i'll never stop laughing.

Did i mention?

Dr Kaval finally helped me remove my braces on Tuesday! HIphip Hooray!!

Love, Joy is so blessed:)

things getting better

2010-05-24T22:32:00.000-07:00

Yoyo Orange.

I contemplated removing my previous post. I came to a conclusion though that good memories, bad memories, they are a part of me. And thus I shouldn't be afraid to face up to the rough patches in my life!

I would say I'm currently resting at the plateau of my life. Im givin myself a break( I just had a kit kat) of 2months till start of Uni. Well of course in between will be some preparation, some fun, more learning and of course, helping out at home. I've not exactly planned out everything that i'll be doing for the next 2 months, but some of the activities that I'm sure of are the university camps, my trip to KL and dancing again! Probably when Uni starts, that will be the climax of my 18th year:D Pretty much looking forward.

Recently went singing with my family, but still didnt have the chance to treat them to secret recipe. My sister claims that i suddenly transformed into a shopping queen. LOL but the thing is i only shop (not including window shopping) once a month!:(

Well talking about family leads me back to Ah Gong's birthday which was last sunday. I enjoyed being a kid again playing and joking around with my little cousins. The best is my dad's cooking! I think i grew by 2kg at least LOL! Ah Gong looked really pleased with the celebration:) I havent seen him smiling so widely for a very long time:)))))

If you ask me what's the best movie for the month of May. I would say IP MAN2:D Donny Yean is damn good looking. More importantly the chinese martial arts spirit that they were trying to portray in the film quite touched my heart. If you ask Nat, I was partly shouting and clapping like an idiot in the cinema. This is my nature,it is hard for me to contain excitement. Well but most of the time Nat and I had our hands in front of our eyes to protect us abit from the violent punches and kicks.

I cant quite recall what else happened over the past few weeks. Havent been updating my personal diary as well:( Well the lazy bug is catching up on me...
Actually sometimes, I feel that words are not the only way to record the events of the past. Photography is another powerful tool which can stop time for that particular moment, and capture the memories that we can never turn back to find because time doesnt wait for us.
However it is much regretted that I wouldnt be putting up any photos here today.

I will when I update the next time:)
P.s orange, you are definitely not that annoying orange that keeps calling every red fruit "APPLE". Hahah u have brains yeaa

love,
JOY

2010-05-07T09:41:00.000-07:00

Dear Orange,

Im not gonna blog about the more stressful stuff today. Just hope that my sis can pull herself together and get better soon. Mother's day celebration has to be postponed haha, probably will sponsor the whole family out to watch IPman2:)

Okie. I need to recap what happened recently.
Last Saturday was our tuition centre's ptm day and indeed it was labour day for us girls! Me, Shuen and Liying ate MACs for breakfast to brace ourselves for the long day ahead. Met unreasonable parents and all, but overall the whole event was a success:) Yay.
After the ptm, although exhausted, i went to meet A02 ppl at ECP. First met up with Ross at Bedok mrt station, haha we r really fated! So we 2 hungry girls quite ate a bit of fingerfood at the Bedok hawker centre:) And then took a cab to ECP. In the end me,ross,ck,lim n jr cyled while waner and ying just walked ard while waiting for us. HAHA ck totally cannot get distracted when cycling or else he'll TOTALLY be a hazard to our lives! WOOHOO! Its great to be in east coast. Havent been there since chu3 when i went with VE ppl.
Chatted with Ross quite a bit on the way home:) I really miss her!

OKie. Here's a glimpse of that night. Got home at 1am i think>.<

Ok then today! AFter visiting sis at the hospital, Linyan and I proceeded to Kent Ridge wing kopitiam to meet up with Haslinda and the rest of CCF ppl:) Got to know 2 new kids, Edward and Saleh. Edward's nice to make fun of haha. I must say i really admire Haslinda, it was probably she who inspired me to be a social worker. The very first time i saw her, she was all smiles. Really supportive, helpful, understanding. WOW. I didnt know there can be such a time when a human isnt that selfish. If possible, i want to be such a person. I want to give like she does! The gratifying look i saw on her face when she sent us off to the Laselle College really melted my heart:))))

Okie so we went to watch "Peter and Blue's Forest Adventure", a production by the Singapore Dance Theatre. HAHA well when i got there i realised why Haslinda mentioned that I was the only older one who wanted to come. The whole theatre was filled with children accompanied by their mothers! Amazing! And well, the story was really entertaining. I felt quite enchanted by the whole fairytale:D Blue, the dog was extremely cute too. The storyline aside, all the ladies were on pointe and it was indeed a marvellous ballet performance by them! Not to miss out the males who can pirouette so well!:D
Me and Linyan both enjoyed the concert a lot:)
Look at the pict below! The blue one is the poser dog haha

Well.and yes! tmr im gonna watch 1 more concert! RJ Dance concert. HAHA what an irony, I didnt watch NJ's. Whatever haha looking forward to finally meet JJQ:)

Hmm what next. Maybe now its time to face my own feelings.
For the past few days, it felt horrible watching my sis suffer like that. I really wish that im the sick one. Myaybe i dont. Coz beside her being sick, i also went for my second MRI scan. This time i went alone, didnt want to trouble my family, who's already bz taking care of sis. This time the scan wasnt that bad but i felt so uncomfortable towards the end i nearly wanted to crawl out of that narrow tunnel like machine. And man. I pray really hard that it doesnt come back again. Maybe all along this is the greatest fear that i have, that's why i didnt even tell my closest friend about how i feel. HAHa but if they read my blog they'll know anywaes.
But come to think of it, i think im ok coz i know im strong. Coz my mum is strong and im her daughter:)
Mom's awesome! I've never stopped wondering why she can operate like a superwoman all year round. I dont look forward to the day she end up really old and feeble, but i think it will come really soon at the rate she's gng. So at least im going to help out for 2 months after my work ends in May so that she can rest:)

And well, the I've also been particularly vexed over Sis's unhappiness with dad and those things she said... I feel unjustified for her on one hand, but on the other, I feel that she should give dad some respect. I think dad was really upset. I felt really bad for having told him whatever sis told me, all uncensored. I just felt he had the right to know. I hope hes feeling ok now.

Bro has been nice and irritating on and off. We went orchard shop that day and he treated me to this BBQ pork dinner. WOO not bad haha and worth it!

:)JIAYOU MEI! GET WELL NOW!!!(:
(That's really all i want for now! I want sis back home!!)

love,
JOY

2010-04-29T08:37:00.000-07:00

Dear Orange,

JM's got into NUS FASS!!:D And there's this really nice lady who offered to let me understand more about social work through home visits with her clients.

One more month to go b4 I can be free from my current job! Wheee! But i'll miss my colleagues and the kids. Well, n maybe my bosses. They have been quite kind at times and Jeffrey shared with us quite a number of his useful experiences.
And a bonus to this job is that there'll be a company trip to Meleka on Vesak day! Yippeee im looking forward to travel with my fellow colleagues!:D

Whats more, i've been starting to plan my travelling trips to Ipoh, KL and Taiwan! It's getting me excited! :)

Another piece of good news! STB is gonna convert Alkaff mansion into a museum! Finally they are putting such a fantastic building into good use:)
Me and LEN are going to visit it one last time!

And binghui is having his operation tmr. I hope all will be fine for him!
My sister as well, hope her exams will go on smoothly, n she do ok:)

WOWWOW my schedule is damn pack this weekend. Im all ready! NIGHts:D

love,
JOY

2010-04-12T09:19:00.000-07:00

Dear Orange!

YEA! Finally renewed my contract n got my new phone! LG Chocolate BL20 WOOHOO. And its white n pink:D I like it very much so far(only a few hrs) haha. And yes! Today went for kbox outing with PW grpmates. Another WOOHOO. The ultimate was when CK sang,"UNder the Sea" LOL.
We all went bonkers when he persisted in singing the whole song haha! And we sang Poker face, bad romance n hollerback girl. Quite shuang and super high:D The emo chinese songs were great too! Actually my pw mates r quite gd singers ma.. hhehe

Tmr have to go back to work again! HAHA but no fear! I've my awesome colleagues to work along with me:D And also the kawaii kids to accompany, haha, besides the whole stack of paperwork waiting for me to complete LOL.
SHING! JM's prepared for tmr!

P.s. Hope my bro will enjoy his poly life!

love,
joy

2010-04-06T08:36:00.000-07:00

Yo Orannge,

Here are some photos i've been wanting to upload.

Yippeee JQ has finally finished her personal statement:) Hope she does well for her interviews! If everything goes well, I'll have 2 close doctor friends:)

Today's my offday! Phew, after all the hardwork, finally have a day to rest. My bro cooked lunch! 0.0 Well, basically coz i want a day of peace, I just stayed at home to read storybk. LOL. But in the end still went out. Ate dinner with my sis at JP and bought stuff from cotton on. LOL. y am i always tired?
Thnks to my mum's not so gentle reminder, i realise that Iv been living very unhealthily. Sleep late, eat loads of sweet food, keep taking spicy food even though I have a sorethroat. EEk, JM should learn to takae care of herself! Still THREE more years to go! Scared. Hope i'll survive. Stupid thoughts. JM STOp.

JM says: Health is wealth!

k iv gotta stop if not this post will go haywire. hehe

2010-04-03T08:33:00.000-07:00

Hi Orange!

Work has been bz Bz bZ BZZZZ LOL@! But still, amidst of work, there are other enjoyable moments:D
Tuesday evening was spent with Hannah and Natalie. We ate the fish and co's $1 fish and chip. Woah that night's a great bargain! Got free live band performance some more WOOHOO. Haha we had a great time catching up:) THe ambience was jsut right YEA.

Wednesday evening I was forced by my bro to treat him to pizza hut. LOL i MUST get a movie in return lol, if not I dont call myself Chan Jia Min! After makan, we went back to block 422 playground. Sat down n talked n i learnt abit of sign language frm him:) Childhood sweet memories<333

THursday was UP. HAHA me and LY ended up dancing in her shop in the most hilarious way after our Macdonalds take-away dinner. We used her big clothes hanger thingy as the bar. THen we drew the curtains of her dressing corner closed so that people from outside cannot see us. HAHA and we were both standing in front of the mirrors doing bar work:D LOl both of us are extremely stiffff

FRIDAY! Good Friday's really awesome! Woke up at 6plus to go for morning jog with bro. Then we set off for breakfast at the market, then to visit our YEye, then our great grandmother. Haizz i miss Yeye very much, felt so bad for not going to pay my respects during A levels period. Hope he's enjoying himself up there:)At the Aljunied cemetry, Dad told us more about our past family history. SHocking, but well, story bonds. Then we went searching for Mum's friend's urn, but cant find:( Anyways, I couldnt help but looked around at the other urns. There were quite a couple of 1-2year olds. And also, I realise that most couples borned in the early nineties are at least 5 years apart, most of which, the males pass away at least 8 years before their wives. LOL. THis is Singapore's demography.Female has higher life expectancy!

After that, we headed off to clarke quay. I brought them to the Italian restaurant that A02 went to. It was my treat. Seems like my family only like the free flow of drinks part best. Coz the food although nice, didnt last too long in our stomachs. Well, we were all really exhausted. Went to sit by the river to rest. Heehee i love FAMILY! Enjoyed talking, making fun and joking with them on our way home on the train:)<3333
Another highlight of the day is that iv finally bought the SIMS3!!!!!! YAYYYYYYYY HIPHIPHOORAY!
Oh and me and bro bet on soccer for today's MAN U vs Chealsea match. We bought 1-3, but the result's 1-2 LOL. Was quite excited when my bro smsed me that the score's 1-2, and i was still hoping Chealsea can score another goal! But too bad:X There goes our $110. Maybe we should try for fifa world cup 2010. Im so looking forward to it!:D

P.s Im tirreedddd! Will upload photos sooonn.
Nightss

love,
joy

2010-03-29T10:06:00.000-07:00

Dear Orange,
I realise that it has been months since iv last written in my other diary(rainbow).THe internet just makes things alot easier. But its no good coz i doubt 10, 15 years down the road that this blog will still be alive.
Last night i stayed up still 3am to finish reading this damn cool mystery story, HHEHE I felt a GREAT sense of satisfaction coz this is the first book iv completed ever since A lvls ended:D More to come JM!
Anywae, i was looking through my past photo albums and i realise the dramatic change of hairstyles overtime. HAHA no wonder my friend's brother never seem to recognise my face!
Here:

I somehow miss my fringe hehe. And i miss Greenlink and Dance!:(
THose memories will be imprinted in my head and heart:)

love,
joy

random occurence

2010-03-27T10:27:00.000-07:00

Dear Orange,
Today we had 08A02 class dinner at clarke quay:) The Italian restaurant at liang court is gd n cheap:) Shall bring my family there soon!
Anywae, meeting up once in a while is great n exciting in a way coz sometimes u get to know breaking news of certain ppl in the class. WOOHOO. Heeeee..
After dinner, we walked around the central and also the shops lining the Singapore River before settling down by the river to chat. Had quite an enjoyable time:) After lim n waner made their 11:11 wish, we all headed home. I took 174 with yy n jr. HAHA had amusing conversations on the way back. Anywae, it wasnt a direct bus, so i had to walk this long ulu stretch of road home. I was almost sprinting alrdy coz i was so afraid. HAHA JM isnt that brave afterall. Well. and i just reached home n finished drinking the tom yam soup my dad cooked:) I feel so loved:D

ALso, one interesting thing that happened over the past few days was that i actually put ntu arts,design and media as my first choice. I was shocked myself. I still remembered the teacher's day card me and sarah drew on behalf of the class for Mrs Chee in JC1. The huge contrast made the whole class laughed for half the lesson-.- HAiz. Although im not gifted in drawing, but i really have interest in this area, especially in design. HAHA, i wonder if im really given a chance to venture into design, will I be able to develop a forte in this area.. HMM... HAiz. but the assignments i have to do are only half completed and i havent start on my portfolio yet! And the deadline's next Wednesday! GO JM!

YEsterday i saw a dramatic scene of a drunked man lying on the grasspatch on my way home. He was vomitting and trying to get up at the same time. He nearly succeeded sitting up but then he fell head down with a loud thud on the ground. Hhaha. At that point of time, i was wondering how i would react. HAHA. I went over to offer my help! LOL i wanted to call ambulance for him but he kept rejecting me. Then i made sure he was ok before i walked away. Surprisingly, he thanked me!(probably sober after vomitting:)

Oh manz i realised that im especially disorganised for this blogpost. But still, iv something to add on. HAHA. That night me and my mum heard two cats fighting really hard downstairs. Coz the noise was extremely high-pitched and disturbing, we went to look out o fthe window when it suddenly stopped. Then we saw one of the cat walking towards the other, while the other timidly stepped aback. Wow. THeir faces were almost touching each other, and they were engaged in some sort of debate. The fierce cat kept interrogating the other one, v v aggressively, then the other one replied! This went on for 10min! Then they started fighting again. HAHA. So the 2 saviours decided to go down to stop the fight. HHehe. i think i inherited abit of my mom's kaypohness.
Anywae, what im trying to conclude from this whole incident is that cats communicate with each other like humans do! And they do get emotional. Its really entertaining watching them talk to each other in cat language:D

Ok. Before i get more random, please let me retire for the night and organise my thoughts.

gdnight!
love,
joy

yay-ness

2010-03-23T05:31:00.000-07:00

ELLOO Orange,
Today's a delightful day. HAHA! After quarelling with JJQ for the past few days, everyth is finally ok alrdy woohoo:D Although i was angry with u, i miss u k! LIke wth, 2months never see her alrdy. So yea, me, ly, jjq, we went to watch Alice In the Wonderland(3D).Yea MANNZZ although its not fantastic, its quite exciting la. I like the way Alice shrank and then grew tall then shrank again. HAHA how i wish i can be like her. But wonderland isnt a very nice place :x

After the movie, we went play arcade! DDR, time crisis4, the childhood table thingy, and street basketball! HAHA. so glad to see the wide smiles on their faces:D I enjoyed myself too!

Then Ly had to leave, so me n jjq went to buy some food and went up to foodcourt to eat. Also shopped around for awhile. HAHA, i spent 30bucks!:(

Our final stop was the library. JJQ borrowed 6 books regarding healthcare(crazy girl) n i borrowed 2 storybks. Browsed through several interior design magazines in the library. If iv money in the future il make sure i design my own house! I've got so many ideas i cant wash them into the drain right lol.

Anyway, today's weather is great n im in a pretty gd mood, hehe so i shall tell u smth bout my dad. LOL
Joke of the Day:
My cute daddy thought that he got a really good deal for a handphone for 2bucks, which was a discounted rate, coz its original price is five-.- Guess what, its a toy phone! Haiyo my naive daddy. Now he blames it on the people crowding around the store for not commenting that those phones are not real.>.< He dad's cute isnt he?

love,
joy

i will find this place

2010-03-18T09:52:00.000-07:00

Dear Orange,

today's weather brought me into deep thoughts about this particular scene that has been replaying itself in my head since i was young, perharps since the very first time i read "The Little Matchstick girl" Hehe:)

It was wintertime back in the early 1900s. I was all alone at night, walking along a narrow lane, bounded by 2 rows of cottage houses. The ground was covered with pure white snow, the street lights shinning brightly over my head. I passed form house to house and peeked into every window. All had tall candles standing on the dining table. Sumptuous feasts have been specially prepared for this festive season. The soft humming of christmas carols coming from afar filled my ear drums. Although it was bitterly cold, i felt this unexplainable form of warmth coming from within me. Christmas felt so close to my heart then. DEJAVU!

P.s. I believe that one day I will chance upon this place that has been living in my memory for so long:) I look forward to that day:)

love,
joy

friendship and outing

2010-03-17T05:39:00.001-07:00

Dear Orange,
I've been wanting to update yesterday, but was busy with uni application. Was rather upset yesterday. Maybe im oversensitive like you said, but i dont know why. I feel quite unappreciated. Although i understand that you do care as a friend, but sometimes being physically there beats mental/moral support.
We know you have to accompany your parents since you are the only child.I feel that iv been really really understanding these past few years. Haiz but everyone's tolerance level have a limit. You may think that im petty, im unforgiving. But, the pangseh-ing has been repeated for the upteemth times. Iv told you how i wish you can change, not to be so self-centred blah blah, but change just doesnt seem to be possible. Y?

Sometimes i have to be the bad guy you noe, i hope that you can wake up from your own little shell/world coz if u want to make friends in the future, u need to know that not everyone can understand your pangseh-ing. Yea. Haiz, actually im not angry anymore, well but now you are. Ok lor. We'll see how it goes.
Sigh....

Now i shall cheer up abit:)
My offday yesterday was spent with my primary school friends:) There were newcomers joining us yesterday for bball!
No1: Avelyn(Darrell's gf)
No2: Junxian
YAY welcome to our gang.
Sweat, play and lots of fun!
Nigel joined us real late.

After bball, went for lunch. Then off to bb csc. Well, the pool is not open yet, so we ended up in ktv. Uncle was nice. He gave 7 of us a price of 20bucks, with 7 drinks and some titbits. We got to play 1 round of pool(which lasted for 40min-.-) and also sing 1hr of ktv. HAHA! Sad, Huiyong and Meixi didnt sing at all! Most of the time it was me n nigel hogging the mic. CMI! LOL. Darrell n his gf did sing "tong hua", which he had difficulty trying to recognise the chinese characters!:D

Overall it was an enjoyable day with them.
Then i got home, did some packing and started my uni apps.
Then i was upset for awhile. But im ok now!:D
YEA

Thats all i want to say.
ciao,
joy

2010-03-15T08:34:00.000-07:00

Hey yoyo Orange!
Yesterday was a pretty much fun day with my family and cousins. It was family day at Escape theme park and WWW:D Woah it has been eons since i went on such thrilling rides!! The family slide at WWW was ZOMG. I screamed likee i never did. And my bro forced me to take that HORRENDOUSLY NERVE WRECKING i-dunno-what-u-call-that U-shaped slide thing with him. AAHHHHH it was so thrilling. My heart nearly dropped.:S My sis n i went to the baby pool to join in the fun with other young kids haha. My dad is still the lame-fun-adventurous old dad. And my mum waited outside for us as usual.

After WWW we went to Escape with our cousins. This time mum followed us in. The highlight was the pirate ship. HHHAA mum decided to try the ride once. And she was so afraid it freaked me out. We got the guy to stop. Haiz. in the end all of us left the place feeling really giddy.
And the haunted house left me with a blueblack on my head. My little cousin was also really scared so i had to put my hands around her and help her cover her eyes so that she cannot see. We were walking along the narrow corridor and suddenly there was this door swinging towards me. OUCHH! Just now i thought that the bump on my head is a pimple but now that i recall it hurts even more:(

The bus back home was awesome!!!!! We took the coach specially catered to NTUC family day event home. ANd we were the only family heading to JUrong. YEAH so we ahd the whole bus to us!!!!!!! It felt really gd to be on the road home from pasir ris to JE. Alot of recollections of my childhood when i used to always travel to and fro between these 2 places:) Fond memories:)

Saturday was a marvellous day as well. Morning was spent eating breakfast with Leon. WOAH haha crystal Jade dim sum's really sumptous:D The porridge's yummy, the baos also steaming hot and the xiao long bao really goes well tgth with vinegar. THANks man bro! And Leon lent me his guitar. HAAha it was more for my other family members la since i cant play:( YAY at least they strum, i sing:)
Alright.. and afternn i met Nat for NUS open house:)Its a very warm and homey school campus:) Met dearest hannah peanut there YAY. The ppl are all v enthu and thanks to them i know where i what i wanna do alrdy!
After the whole thing ended, me and nat carried our heavy NUS goodie bag and took mrt all the way to expo. Was abit late. Gobbled down a burger and then went in for the concert. It was awesome! They really put in alot of effort and thoughts into the whole performance. I was rather high la. Hehe JM's first time watching a live performance by a singer leh:D Thenk you Nat for the invitation yeah!

Hmm and today.. I rushed to work coz i woke up at 10.45 when im supposed to reach at 11am. HAHA. still 20min late. Really tired now.

P.S. yesterday Dwarf JZ called me. Made me realise how long iv left VE. Quite miss the ppl there. Ms lixia, Mr HB'group,Ms Dorothy'sgrp, Mr Charles.. Haha.But i guess i wouldnt go back anymore. Hope everyone does well!!!!!!! :DDD VE will GROW AND PROSPER!

Yea its time to sleep.
nights,
Joy

the story of miss joy

2010-03-11T08:28:00.000-08:00

Dear Orange,
Everything is finally settling down. WoW 1 week of relief teaching + admin one after the other. Seriously didnt know how i managed to do that. Had almost 1 consecutive week of gastric alrdy! Anyway it felt awesome to be back in RV again after 2 years in NJ! I always see a sea of familiar faces whenever i go hehe.

The year 1 classes i taught were really cute. 1 boy asked me for autograph!O.O 1J made a really nice note for me using icecream sticks hhaha. All my classes greeted me a very enthusiastic and warm goodbye for my last day with them. YAY i really enjoyed myself with them.

Today's fire drill will probably be the very last one il have in my life unless a real fire breaks out:D My adorable class went by the library way although the school management announced very loudly that the library was on fire-.- Oh and the new principal really do look n dress abit like Chairman Mao. Rv is gonna turn communist! Anywaes, i hope RV first A level batch will do okay. And 4M must work hard and do well for their O lvls man!!

Lol k. Jm enough bout sch. Now to work. WOAH iv been getting like a lot of scoldings recently from my boss. WTH. Most of the time i wasnt in the wrong but im not the kind who would point fingers at others. So everytime when my boss opens her mouth, the song,"Put the blame on me" will start playing over and over again in my head. Haha funny.
I only like work coz of my colleagues and the kids..Tmr is not bad coz we are going to get a lunch treat from our bosses. Can order anyth we like leh:D Im gonna make sure the feast pays me back for all the gastric pain i suffered!

Am looking forward to this weekend manzz!
Saturday morning Leon's gonna treat me dim sum YUM! And then will be off to NUS openhouse with nat:D Then to max pavillion for the JJLin 313concert WOOHOO!
SUnday will be family dayyy yeppiieeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!yayayayayay ESCAPE!

Let me think...last sunday was really fun also. Went to SMU open house. Saw the hiphop dance. WOAHHHH the dancers were really dynamic and sharp and cool manzz O.O
Then me and LEN began our walk to bugis and then to Singapore River. In between, we stoppe to eat KFC, then went into a pet shop:D Then halfway we saw Raffles Hotel. Then we went in to see. HAHA it was very empty. Feels like its gonna be abandoned soon. Yea so we took a lot of pictures, including LEN's failed jumpshots>.< I love the place manzz. The lighting, the antique-ancient kind of feeling that seems to me like a time capsule that stores alot of fond memories of the past. We both enjoyed the ambience alot! Its like the previous alkaff mansion part 2! Alkaff rawks! We are planning to return soon:D

Finally after a very long time, we finally reached sg river. HHEHE! Chatted for half an hour, then bus home. It has been quite a while since we spend such quality time tgth! Really glad:D

Sometimes i wonder how 2 complete strangers can become best of friends. They are such wonderful gifts that God has sent to me. HEHe LEN you are just like the sibling i never had. Thank you for painting together with me such a beautiful friendship:)

Dont be too touched:)

love,
Miss Joy:D

2010-03-07T07:04:00.000-08:00

Dear Orange,
my sis is such a lovely, generous, outspoken, friendly n kind little girl(although she looks more matured than me.haha) Girl, if u r reading this, i hope u can show ppl ard u who u really are inside. Break away from that shell of urs, dont hide things from me, at least. Its horrible keeping things to urself. i really want to help u with whatever u r facing now. Please dont ever ever revert to your old ways. I am so happy to see u change, and for a long time the quarrels n everyth stopped yea. Its awesome. Really:)

you r doing great in sch. The end results is get for ur tests etc is really not tht impt. Most importantly is the progress we see in u. Really. Dont do anyth tht harms urself(u know what i mean). I hope u dont give up on urself. Dont let mum n dad down.

You see, i dedicated such a long post to u. I really do care alot although im always so bz outside:(

I love u!
JM

boohooo

2010-03-06T06:49:00.000-08:00

Dear Orange,
The most significant event of the week is of coz the release of my A lvl results. wAS super duper nervous when i was on my way to school. Felt abit better when i sat down with my class. Saw many many familiar-long-time-no-see faces haha. One of it is my eyecandy! hAAHHA he is so dark. And wearing a beanie over his bald head:p Bet he did really well. But anywaes, congrats to sherlene aka greenlink president! One of the top science students in our sch! :D So super happy for her!

THen slowly one by one we collected our results. I was the second to get it. HAHA n the last to open it. Hhaha no gd,no courage to open. THe whole scene was v dramatic. Like a chain reaction,the girls in my class started crying. THere were straight As, alot of As. HaHHA it was joy n laughter:) I am so so glad for them. Congrats! ZF, YX, HM, Sarah. I was smiling all the way. HAHA my other friends thought i did very well. No lar its below nj average. But i passed GP! And iv got A for geog:DD Omg. really v v v happy. Thts enough for me le:) My effort did pay off:)

K enough of the results. Second most happening thing in my life now is relief teaching! HAHA. I love my class 1K! They are really cute:D V polite, n awesome class spirit! 1F was a bit tu xue. Opps. but really zero respect.
Im gonna ask 4M for bball. Dunno whether it'll succeed haha.
I think everyday of teaching is a roller coaster for a new comer like me. Although im exhausted,i did enjoy myself alot. Thanks for the opportunity manzz:)

Opps. i totally dao-ed my family coz i was so tired. Now its time to make up for it. Buaizz
joy

2010-03-03T06:13:00.000-08:00

Dear Orange,
Relief teaching is starting tmr! Somehow looking forward to it HAHA. Iv to take attendance for the teacher's form class, so have to reach school before 7.20. Manz its just like secondary school days.. and im sitting in the cubicle next to my sec sch geog teacher!

Anywae coz rv is so big now, i bet il get lost. Hope my students dont run away haha. Hope everyth turns out fine! JIAYOU JM aka Miss Joy. HAHA.

Btw, i treated my sis to Swensons this afternn. We ordered sundaes for dessert. Only 9.80! 2 for the price of one! My banana split ended up looking like some natural disaster happened>.< Mei couldnt finish her milo icecream also.
So i conclude that food always tastes better when its shared between 2 or more:D

My banana split:
Before

After

Milo sundae

P.S.Jiayou MEI! Dont give up!!

love,joy

JM hugs orange

2010-03-02T07:29:00.000-08:00

Dear Orange,
I shopped today and used my atm card so happily that i didnt realise I spent more than 80 bucks in just 2hrs! EEyeer i always do tht when im stressed or unhappy. But doesnt seem like it leh..so i conclude that atm cards are horrible inventions unless you can resist your urge to splurge-.-

Anywaem i dropped the files 5 times at work when shuling n Kailin were discussing abt A lvl results and uni application. I dont want to think about anyth until i get my results man! HAha. Luckily my schedule on thursday n friday is so super busy tht i have no time to think about A lvl:D
Gonna be doing 1 week of relief teaching in rv starting this thurs. Mans. Really have to teach them geog leh! Not sit down there supervise only:(
hAizzzzzzz im starting to sigh again. Gastric sia.

Oh btw, i havent introduced the kids at my tuition centre yet!
Yesterday there was a group of phonics n reading kids:D and i was called in by the teacher to help look after the class. Woohoo.
They asked me," teacher, what's ur name?"
I told them that i am Joy, J-O-Y Teacher Joy haha.
And i explained to them the meaning of the word and asked them if they are happy children.
And they replied YES haha.
Anywae, they are really talkative and I enjoyed myself with them hehe cute.

My favourite kid is Jessie! Although he's really playful n hyper, hes superrr cute. Tht time i brought them to the toilet. He suddenly stopped halfway and hugged my leg! Wah so super cute.
And there are also a couple of potential shuai ges and mei nus in our tuition centre hehe.

I feel that kids are really lovely if you understand them and talk to them:D
That time i went to volunteer at a moral epic centre where the kids have slower learning abilities than normal children. But you know what. Although they may not understand ABC, and they cannot speak, they know what is love, what is care and what is share. Through a simple hug, you know that they appreciate what you've done for them:) Very sweet:)

We should give more hugs of encouragement and appreciation to our love ones, to show that we care and will always be there for them:D I shall do that more often!

Now, ciao!
Joy

2010-02-28T04:34:00.000-08:00

Dear Orange,
really exhausting this weekend:(
But iv finally got the fruits of my labor! Haha treated my family to curry fish head dinner yesterday. Nice!
Random thoughts:
I hope Sinying will stay behind and work with us!
Hope Ms Lixia is doing gd..
I wanna stop feeling so tired>.<
Hope A lvls will be ok. AHH!
Its either social work or business..
My com cannot play SIMS3:(
JJQ is coming back!
I want go Kbox!
V long never watch movie alrdy:x

Woah what a long train of thoughts. im drained. byezz

love, JOY

fortunate me

2010-02-25T08:03:00.001-08:00

Oraange!
I am so glad and thankful that I am healthy:D
Was reading through my other entries to you and i feel that iv matured quite abit and i want to live at least another 50years to contribute to my family and to the society!
So happy that i find so many reasons to smile everyday:)
Hip hip hooray!

love, cjiam
P.s i ought to sleep but dunno y im so high>.<

Kore wa suki desu

2010-02-24T10:28:00.000-08:00

Orange!
I am super duper proud of myself!!:D
THis is the very first time i didnt screw up my blog's html! Go pictures somemore. WOOHOO! Its totally orange somemore:)
I love it i love it i love it!
Also thanks to emo bh who helped me with the html, n my sis as well.

Arigato! Oyasumi Nasai!-.-

Love,
cjiam

THe lesson that VE has taught me

2010-02-07T21:05:00.001-08:00

Dear Orange,

I would like to share with you a book that someone lent to me:) Its titled, " Peaks And Valleys" by Spencer Johnson M.D.
Below's a brief summary:
Life is 10% of what happens to us and 90% of how we react to it. It is natural for everyone everywhere to have peaks and valleys at work and life, and these peaks and valleys do not only represent what external ups and downs u face in life, but more importantly, how you feel inside and respond to outside events. The old man in the book said, "How you feel depends largely on how you view your situation. The key is to seperate what happens to you from how good and valuable you feel as a person."

If we realise, the peaks and valleys in our lives are connected! The errors you make in Today's good times create tomorrow's bad times. And the wise things you do in today's bad times create tomorrow's good times. Even if one reaches the peak of his of her life, it doesnt mean that the person will stay up there forever. THis is because as human beings, we have too many desires to be fufilled, and many people fail to manage their good times, wasting too mny resources and getting away from the basics. That is when we create our own bad times again.

"Peaks are moments when you appreciate what you have, and valleys are moments when you long for what is missing."In life, even when sometimes we have reached our goals, we are still very unsatisfied with what we get when we compare ourselves to someone greater. So if you want fewer valleys, avoid comparisons. If you enjoy what's good about the moment, you feel more like you are on a peak:)
Remember, you cannot always control external events, but you can always control you personal peaks and valleys by what you believe and what you do!
"THe Path out of the valley appears when you choose to see thigns differently."

I like this: " You change your valley into a peak when you find and use the good that is hidden in the bad time." If you do not learn in a valley, you can become bitter. If you trul learn somthing valuable, you can become better.

ALso, sometimes in life,we may come upon a stage whereby everything is peaceful and smoothsailing with no challenges at all. This we what we call a plateau. A plateau can be a time for us to rest, reflect and renew.

p.s this post is supposed to be longer but wait till i can accept whatever i typed first b4 i publish:)

love, cjiam

welcome to my life, 2010

2009-12-31T21:41:00.000-08:00

Dear Orange,
Yesterday's countdown was really fun! Celebrated with DHA ppl at downtowneast chalet. Got to know alot more ppl in DHA:)
The theme for the evening was "Back To School", and i felt that the seniors and leaders really pulled it off well:D We had the prefectory board, the discipline master, PE and history teachers. HAHA! They were humorous!! I was in class E for EEEELEPHANT! HAHA, the cheering part was damn funny:D
Mr Satish dressed in his secondary school uniform, acted really retarded. He was really convincing in playing his role of a 17 year old kid who retained in Primary1 for 10years! HAHA! Then there was Mr Gabriel who dressed in i think sajc girl's uni. Wah super niang! HAHA, i couldnt stop laughing at everyone!
Ms lixia looked younger than me la. And Mr Hongboon looked like a teacher cum british soldier.:DD

The night was young, we chatted n played games. Even sang the national anthem and took the national pledge, just like a school flag raising ceremony. We had math, history and PE lessons. The prefects even took down names of ppl who misbehaved and they really got caning by Mr Dewey! HAHHA!
I really enjoyed myself alot, too bad i cant stay to play Saboteur with the others.

So at 10plus i made my way to clarke quay. Was really excited to see fireworks!! Chionged all the way there, reached at 11.45pm. 12mn, mans! Everyone one along the Singapore river welcomed 2010 with screams and cheers. Then boom! oFF went the fireworks. It ended off very beautifully!:DD I feel so blessed man.
After that went to Linyan's house. Me and En stayed over. Ate then chatted till we sleep. Not bad la. Slept for 6hrs.

Many memorable events happened to me in year 2009. It feels abit sad that time cannot turn back for me to experience them again. But as the saying goes,
" Dont cry because it is over, SMILE BECAUSE IT HAPPENED" :D

2009 will be always be kept in a special part of my memory.
Now face 2010 with new hopes, new dreams and new ambitions, girl!:D
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

love, cjiam

otello

2009-12-26T20:05:00.000-08:00

Dear Orange,
BOXING DAY's over!! I am officially EIGHTEEN now! HAHA. It feels good to be just turning 18, when many of friends are going to be 19 very soon:D
Hahah, the reason why i am here after almost a month of missing in action is that my mum wants me to write an "essay" about the wonderful day i spent with my family on 26dec-.- I thought might as well give updates on what has been in for me recently:)

Was really really bz these few weeks with work, with meeting people, with outings, with a lot of talking. Hhaha.This 1month was brief, yet meaningful. I havent got to do my voluntary work yet, but my job has allowed me to meet and interact with people from all walks of life. I learnt alot from my leaders, especially the sheer perserverance that my mentor had in her:)

Hahah. Do you know that there is no such thing as a "problem" because there's always a SOLUTION to everything in life. Nothing is impossible, yea. Iv learnt how to face up to life and not to run away or emo whenever something crops up. To succeed in life, we have to accept all challenges that comes in our way. We need to learn how to love rejections, love criticisms, because only through all these we will grow stronger n mature n change for the better.
Other than interacting with others, we humans actually spend most of the time talking to ourselves. Therefore, the ultimate battle in life that determines whether one succeed or fail is between us and ourself. Positive thinking and a strong mindset will overcome the weak emotional voice inside everyone of us.

How much do we really understand about ourselves? Do you know what is your fullest potential like? Can you name all your strengths?

I really hope that in the 18th year of my life, i can discover more about myself and then fully utilise my strengths and weaknesses to live life to the maximum!
I hope that i can learn to love and appreciate the people around me more.I need to learn independence and to be less selfish or self centred.

Hmm..so overall, character development is my key birthday and new year resolution for this year.

Updates
30th: Went back RV collect tshirt, cap n badge for RV Bigwalk:)
A lot of motivational speeches today.
29th: Appointment
28th: Family outing!!:DD We went singing haha and dinner at westmall. Bought new
clothes, thanks mum!:)
27th: Family gathering @my house. Steamboat, yumyum!:D
26th: My birthday! Went to Ms ling's house n office in the morning. Sumptuos
dinner(it has been long since the 5 of us had dinner tgth!!) THen headed to csc
for pool:DD (finally learnt from my siblings how to play relac pool hhehe).
Then home.
Great day, thanks for all the birthday wishes mans!!
24th-25th: Our christmas party! My primary and secondary school friends came, along
with my bro's irritating friends. Had a fun time playing slabjack:D
Love dad's cooking! Thanks for my parents hardwork in the kitchen, if not
the party wouldnt have been posible. Sis and her big group of friends came
just before the countdown n left immediately after. HHAA! Some of us
stayed to play mahjong till 3plus then home. Lee Erning slept over:)
Talked till i fell asleep halfway:D
25th: Christmas celebration with A02 at marina barrage:D lovely weather and ppl. And
lots of food and laughter, as well as kites flying in the air. I enjoyed myself
alot! And thanks for the surprise birthday cake:)
23rd: Kbox and birthday celebration with ly, sh and jq:) had a crazy time singing.
22nd: Mans! didnt get to send mr ward off:( Happy bdae linyan!

Due to my horrendous memory, i cannot rmb what else i did before the previous week liao!:((
Looking forward to countdown later. BUAIZ!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

lovess,
cjiam

life life life life life life life life life

2009-12-05T19:12:00.000-08:00

Dear ORange,
This past week has been a life-changing experience for me. I experienced like a mix of many different emotions, saw many distinct perspectives of different people about life and received many comments from people closest to me--good or bad.

WOW. Its cool, i cant believe it myself. I LEANRT.
About business, entrepreneurship; what really is the true purpose behind all these.
About life, about reality.
About the importance of our attitude towards every single thing in life.
About perserverance, about going against the odds.
About the need for challenges in life.

Hmm..i think i matured qutie a lot within these few days. HAHA. Maybe all along i've been hiding inisde the shell that my parents have built around me. THey tell me what to do in life. Until recently, i felt that i suddenly have a direction in life. I finally found it! I hope people around me will too.
Eighteen is not too late to start working towards my goal in life right:)

The young entreprenuers i spoke to really gave me a lot of motivation and inspiration to want to make things happen in my life.
And of coz, while working hard towards my goals, I want to do it with joy haha.

What i mean is that, its hard to pursue a happy life coz of our high hopes, and with high hopes come greater disappointment. I would rather,learn to find my own little ways to find joy and laughter from bits and pieces of everyday life:D So instead of trying to work towards happiness, I am already happy myself.

Yea man, i think im half successful coz im someone whos easily satisfied with life. Go man, jm!

HAHA, think iv sidetracked quite abit.
So, life has been good to me so far. Too nice that its sometimes too mundane and boring. Thats y,its time to challenge myself to something new:)

Anywaes, did i tell u about my prom dress? HAHA. Its RED. And medium length. My heels. Its only 2 inches i think, or one-and-a-half. I wouldnt wanna torture myself just coz of prom:)
Actually..im not really in the prom mood, or rather, i dont feel that its coming or smth. HHEhe, hope that it'll be fun.

Yesterday i went bellydancing with Vanessa! HAha,it was quite fun, and we learnt really v basic steps. Not too bad an experience:)
Then we went to buy cloth at Spotlight before going for dinner at ajisen ramen!
I ate the volcano ramen hehhe. It didnt taste spicy, but then i had gastric after the meal. Still a bit of pain now:/

Another happy thing is that i got to meet my little cousins afterwards! Hehe iv been looking forward to this half a year family outing!:) There was lots of fun and laughter. YAY

Alrights here are some pictures from yesterday XD

Oh yar, nearly forgot. We had a class outing this week too. Ate at swensons, then played pool. It has been eons since i played. Had a great time!
And did i mention about the movie 2012? I went to watch with my whole family. For the first time!!!! HAHHA. The movie was fabulous, awesome, fantastic. Maybe coz im too emotional and dramatic; i "woahed" more than 7times, i cried 3 times and i laughed more like 5 times. Funny yea. I really liked the movie though at the end of the day, i realised that i didnt learn much from it.:D

Hmm.. and, on tuesday i think, i went to eat at jp's prata hut. HAha, the paging system was hilarious, the food and atmosphere there is not bad.
Then after that me and binghui combed the whole of jp for the traditional yamcake(e steam kind) for my grandpa. And to no avail!!!!! How can it be! Its my fav food too:(

What else..haha sry too much have been happening, i seemed to have left out smth. Oh yar! The weather! Siannn, its either a downpour, or it feels like im in sahara. That day i went to play badminton with my primary school friends, and suay suay it started raining cats and dogs when i was walking home. HAHA. My supertitious mum claimed that if it rains everytime someone wanna go out, it means that the person is very stingy. Nvm, i dont think i am.

OKOK. Iv got loads of things to do. Gtg. The photos..i still have many i want to upload, but the internet does not permit me to. Another time then:)

Ciaos
love, cjiam

enjoyment

2009-11-25T18:41:00.000-08:00

Dear Orange,
Have been going to Orchard on 3 consecutive days since Monday! Tired tired. Hahah but the returns are not bad. Havent found my prom dress though:( THanks to ying who will be going shopping with me again later! On tuesday, waimin brought me for a job interview at UOB Plaza! Mans..iv never entered such a grand corporate building b4. Pardon my noob-ness, but the lift ride up was really exciting. HHAHA. Up to the 56th storey. THen all the ppl we meet there are businessmen, mostly caucasians. Hmm.,.maybe il be working at a plcae like that in the future. But it seriously look intimidating. THe interview was brief and rather informal. Hope i get a job soon!!

Ok here are some pictures from yesterday.

Mudpie and scone from Ben And Jerry:DD

I like the ambience there:)) we were eating at the outlet in Orchard Central

I love this pict!! HAhah.

Waimin u look friendly here!!:))

P.S.I made a video of our cat!! But e uploading failed:( haha if anyone of u are interested, can ask me for it:D

e speech of freedom

2009-11-23T07:10:00.000-08:00

Dear Orange,

OOHHYEAA! Im freeee:DD WHEE! Had a great time today, just that too bad we didnt get to roll on e grass:( Went Orchard with Yuexi and Waimin after chem.
The prom dresses at wisma are quite pretty:D
After Yx left to meet her friend, me n waimin walked to orchard central. I think iv been out of touched with the dynamic orchard area for so long! The place is really spacious and well designed i guess, just tht i wish they had made better use of the huge space there.
The best thing about orchard is that it brings me into the christmas mood!! I love the lightings!:) Cant believe Christmas is coming again. Its kind of fast isnt it? And im going to be 18 soon! It has been the third year since we last celebrated yeye's birthday:( We miss you, yeye..
Anywae, in place of my yeye's birthday, me and my bro have decided to organise a christmas party at home!:D Im so looking forward to it!

I am currently in a very festive and joyous mood hahha. Iv made big plans for this upcoming 8 months:) I want to make full use of it, not just to earn money, bt to do things tht i like. Goonna learn belly dancing! HAHHA. And continue with hiphop, do lots of voluntary work, learn baking, sewing...
Hmm..hope im not too ambitious:)

The best thing is that i can finally spend quality time with my family and close friends:)

One bane is that iv to spend lots of time packing the mountains of notes i have conveniently spreaded across my whole table during my intensive revision period. Haizz..so troublesome.
And heres someone i miss ALOT...

My babygirl, i miss u like crazy!! :(

Anywae, here are some of my chem friends:)

I hope that everyone will have a great time after As:) Jiayou to those who havent ended yet!

love, cjiam

saying goodbye

2009-11-13T01:42:00.000-08:00

Dear Orange,
DARLING IS THE BEST GIFT THAT HEAVEN SENT TO OUR FAMILY! I will never forget all the great times we had together. Hahha she gave me a final scratch on my face before she left.

Darling i love u, and we'll all miss you like crazy:((

lots of love,
cjiam

running is great

2009-10-12T09:07:00.000-07:00

Dear Orange,
Today i ran my guts out. Although i was really drained and dizzy after 2 consecutive mock papers...i just felt that i need to relax and be alone. Running is the best solution, isnt it? I feel much better now! :D
I need to brace myself up for tomorrow!:)

Mother Teresa once said:
"Yesterday is gone. Tomorrow has not yet come.
We have only today. Let us begin."

I am deeply inspired by her compassion, her devotion and her lifelong vocation of service.
There is effectively only 26 left to A levels! Everyday, every moment is crucial! Therefore, i need to go!:D

love, cjiam

darling<333

2009-10-09T21:54:00.000-07:00

Dearest Orange,
I am back!:) Just eaten my lunch. OMG. Today i cooked fried rice with rice that was cooked 2 weeks ago. Haha. Didnt know that till my mum told me. GREAT. Nevermind bout' that.

YAY! I am here to post more picts of my darling. HAHAH..
Actually she has quite a number of nick names. Me and my sis call her DARLING, sometimes, NANA. My mum calls her GIRLGIRL. My bro calls her MAOMAO(hairy hairy) haha, she's not. My dad..forget it. -.-

Here you go.

She always chooses the weirdest spot to rest at.

Encircled by a holy ring of stinky shoes! >o<

Her poses r not bad right!

Spot her! Me and my sis took a long time to find her >.<

I thought that this photo is super! Darling looks like a tornado rotating at an ultra speed.

Wells. I am tired. This is all for today:)

love, cjiam

confused

2009-10-09T07:32:00.001-07:00

Dear Orange
I am feeling rather depressed today. It has been a long time since i emo-ed. Hahah..its a sort of mixed feeling when it comes to thinking about your official last day as a student attending lessons in school and the thought of your lack of direction in life. After this part of my journey ends, another phase will begin. I was thinking very hard of the plans i have for myself after A levels, and whether i will really adhere to it, because it means me having to organise and plan them all by myself. I guess I've been over-reliant on education all this while. Without it, I feel like a blind mice. At least life in school is all planned out for me by the MOE syllabus as the guidelines and also by my teachers who meticulousy planned study timetables for us. Come to think of it, I dont feel like human. All along i have been hiding in this virtual shell that education has built over me. I need to experience the real world outside man!
Haiz, The more i think about it, the more confused i get. EEEKK. I hate this feeling.
I have zero hopes for GP now.

Haiz. nvm bout the depressing stuff.
Btw, iv been staying back in school quite alot these 2 weeks. I think studying with friends is alot more fun haha. Its amusing how we will all end up pacing up and down the canteen trying to memorise our geog notes. Oh and we had pizza for dinner one of those nights. And i went gaga and started singing to my friends. We all laughed like mad:D

WOOHOO. STEAMMM Ah!(thats my dad's language) >.<
1 more month!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

As much as i want to post some pictures of my darling, my extremely retarded computer doesnt allow me to. Forget it!
This is all then. BYE!

love, cjiam

2009-09-24T00:16:00.001-07:00

I am feeling lazzzyyy!!
Just cooked my own lunch. HHEEHE. Its a bargain, amounts to less than $1 apart from the can of campbelle soup that cost me $1.70. I combed the whole kitchen and took abit of ingredients here and there and tadah! a meal's ready:DD
I have no motivation to start work!!:((

Maybe i should go take an afternoon nap..zzzz

P.s. i realise that the timing recorded at the bottom of each post is not synchronised with the actualy time. ERrr.. its supposed to be 3.30pm now!:)

life

2009-09-22T11:27:00.001-07:00

Orange!
I am determined to blog! Throughout this awful period of studying for prelims, i have been constantly questioning myself what i am struggling so hard for. I seriously dont get what life is about! I want to do the things i am passionate about, like volunteering, dancing and travelling. But these, in today's society are merely alternative lifestlyes which cannot earn me a living and may even be thought of as escapes from reality. I dont understand then what i am living for?!

Hmm..maybe, maybe my interests can only be supplementary to the kind of life i am supposed to lead, which is the usual mundane study-work life. Hhehe..i am rather confused! I realise that i have never been certain of what will become of me in the future, or rather what i want to do in the future. :X

This is bad.

But anywaes, for now, at least i know what i should do, that is, to get over A's first! THis is one big obstacle and also my only stepping stone into university..
(ironic, how threat and opportuniy can co-exist at the sametime >.<)
Prelims was horrifying, comparable to commontest i guess..whats wrong with me! Even my brother who doesnt even study half as much as me is showing great improvements in his prelims!! :S

Studying is draining and torturous, but with my family, friends and my little kitten around, ihave no fear! HAHA!:D

Its great to have friends i can study with and who are ever-ready to sacrifice their ears for my complaints and random shrieks of stress:) It feels great to receive random messages of encouragements in the middle of the night when i feel like giving up on my revision:)
Not only this, i still have my belovet mum and dad who never fail to spur me on. My brother and sister too! I will not forget the late nights or rather very early morning we spent in Macdonalds during the September holidays! HAHA.. but sadly we got distracted by the soccer game on TV. HHAha, although i am not a big fan of soccer, i actually cheered with the rest when i witnessed the powerful bicycle kick made by this fellow(sry cannot rmb his name!) during Tottenham's match against Manchester United. He scored the goal within 1 minute from the start of the game!! It was awesome!!:))
Anyway, it is quite shameful to admit how many tons of fats i have gobbled down during my stay at Macs. -.-

Finally, here are some updates on my dearest darling:
This first picture was taken ages ago when she was still the size of my palms.

She has got her first scratchboard!

Her hobby..

She's a really playful girl!^^

And this is the state she ends up in! >o<

Heres her favourite colour, quite close to mine hehe

And she's really protective of her own things, like in this case, she refuse to let go of her shit! HAHA!

Now her owners:

To my pretty sister, if you are reading this, i sincerely hope that you can stop all your nonsense. Its all for yourself. ILU, we all do:)

Last but not least, i am not sure whether this will be a good way to end off my post, but anyway,

RARRRR!

Time to retire for the night(morning?) haha
bye!

love,
cjiam

p.s. Btw, i forgot to mention about the abandoned building i explored the other time. It has a very very long history to it! Here's a brief summary:

Previously known as the Alkaff Mansion, it was built by Syed Abdul Rahman Alkaff who came to Singapore from Yemen during the pre-war period. It was built primarily as a retreat for the Alkaff family and also to entertain their numerous clients and guests of different races
The Mansion was later abandoned after World War II. In 1986, Singapore Tourism Promotion Board it converted into a restaurant, retaining the old world charm of the Alkaffs.
From the reviews i looked through, seems that the ambience and the food there was very appropriate for romantic evening dinners. HAIZ! How i wish the restaurant is still there, but sadly for no particular reason, it was once again left vaccant in 1993. Till now:(

It's really cool to imagine how the place looked like in the past, with customers streaming in and out of the gates, waitresses scurrying up and down the staircase to deliver food to the guests..And maybe some soothing background music(most likely jazz hehe). Perharps the clanking of pans made by the chefs and the whispers and giggles amongst couples while they enjoy their dinner in the restaurant.

How i wish i was there to witness all these..

Maybe my description may not be vivid enough. Hehe..if you are interested, you can go and check out this website:
http://www.travelfirst.com/pays/sinres_e.html

Here are some pictures of it in the past that i found online:
1) From the exterior omg!(compare this picture with the one in my previous post and you'll understand why i was so taken aback>.<)

2) The garden!! Even with the aid of this photo,I cannot picture how beautiful it used to be. That time i went, although there were still signs of the pink bouganvillea blooming,the yard was completely empty and DEAD.

I was thinking if i have the opportunity to join STB next time, i'll make sure that my very first project is to revamp this place again!!

<3333 :D

2009-08-13T05:02:00.000-07:00

ORANGE!

BIGGGG NEWS! A RP couple got knocked by a malaysian train while they were sitting on the railway track 5am last saturday morning! Maybe i shouldnt describe in detail the number of bones they have broken and how tragically they have died. The point is. THey surely would have heard the train coming!!!:((
I dont believe that the place is cursed in any way. Haiz..

Anywae, my commontest results were horrible. Il work harder for Prelims! Hopefully! But its really stressful for me now! All outings have turned into mugging outings.:( Mugged at EN's house last saturday. Then went swimming really late at night. LOL!! I can still do breaststroke with my left hand!! OMG i was quite elated:p

National day a great day spent at Ahgong's house. First is the surprise of a new bike for me!!:D I LOVE AH GONG MAN! Woohoo. HAHA then theres my adorable but noisy little cousins. We had great fun cycling and playing downstairs. HAhah..i feel like im back to being a kid whenever im with them! Made new kid friends below the block somemore..haha cute la.
I felt that the national day show was not bad. HHAha and i did make the pledge at 8.22pm!

National day celebrations in school!

National day holiday was spent mugging again. Met Darrell and Leon at westmall Macs to mug. HHAH it was quite fruitful coz i have a chem pro and an econs pro to teach me.
I WANT TO WATCH UP!

Anywae, most days i would stay back in school to mug with my friends. Weddesday went to meet JJQ at Starbucks at coronation. HHEHE. I ordered ice blended caramel. It tasted quite good hehe. :D JQ ordered some chocolate chip drink. We chatted and mugged(AGAIN!!) HAiiz...im sick of studying.

I LOVE GEOG!(Random!)
I love my sister's blog songs!!(random too!!)

And i love GIRLGIRL!! THats what i call my sister's kitten.
HAHAH you wouldnt want to know what my dad does to her.

First, he makes her pick 4D numbers for him. Look at his greed-ridden face!

Then he decided to be nice to her.( allow her to rest abit)

Then the next moment...

that old man started hopping around like a kangeroo and claims that the kitten is a baby kangeroo in its mother's pouch! -.-

Alright. thats all i guess. Hope u're entertained! Il try to update soon!

lovesss,
cjiam:)

contradicting emotions

2009-07-19T07:37:00.000-07:00

Dear Orange,

I HAVE 2 PIECES OF GOOD NEWS!:D And 2 pieces of baddd news.. which would u like to hear first?
Hhaha..ok lets think happy thoughts first! Greenlink finally handover le! YAY! 1 less thing to worry about:) I really wish the new exco all the best!:D Go Jocelyn and Peiru!!
On 18/7/09, i went to bukit timah railway AGAIN! This time with my fellow envirofest mates; YQ, Jocelyn, Jacy and Mingxiu! Hhehe. This time, we ventured into the forest in search of the river, temple and finally the abandoned railway track that Joy mentioned.
Before our journey at KAP:D

We're about to enter!

This time coz we need to climb over treetrunks, logs, and tall grasses, we each got prepared with a long walking stick(branches) to get rid of anything in the way. HAHA. Really cool!

And in we go under Yq's guidance!

The river!

Just nice..a train passed by! TOOT TOOT TOO!

After this "expedition" I really had a feeling of what its like hovering between life and death. Climbing over huge logs infested with ants, walking through tall pricky grasses which who knows, might even hide a cobra,walking on soft and unstable grounds... All that lies beyond i really a big question mark. HHAHA. its rather thrilling! We all had fun!

A rare purple morning glory we saw on the way

YAY! 5 "sunflowers"

YAY! And this kind uncle directed us out to holland road. It was a fast 15minutes walk.
We saw this very cute streetname!:D its like we walking on the MOON!

From there, we took a bus to the abandoned railway at clementi. YAY! THis is my second time at the railway bridge:)

Poor yq's scared!

I like this!Looks like im floating in the sky right!

HAHA! i climbed in and couldnt get out!

Yippe!! We have crossed the bridge!

OPPS! DID WE JUST DID SOMETHING ILLEGAL?

HHAA! the star of the day!

We ended our journey at the clemnti mall. Ate subway! YUMYUM! YQ doing chem somemore!

Our final photo of the day. Location:toilet with no toilet paper.

Anyway, another good news is the addition of a new member to our family! LOOK! HAHA she doesnt have a fixed name yet. I LOVE HERR!! REALLY DIDNT EVER OCCUR TO ME THAT IL LIKE A CAT!!

MY DEAR GIRL!!

Haiz..now the worries.
The most devasting news is that my bike was STOLEN!! ASSHOLE!!! Made me and my dad combed the whole neighbourhood! I hate the person! :(((((((((((((((

Then an even more upsetting news. My dear sis. Y? If u stop telling lies, everything would be fine. Where are you now? I miss the kind hearted, generous little girl. Y have u become so rude, so irresponsible, so.. Where are you now? WHERE? WHERE? WHERE? If u are reading this, i just hope that you can come home. Although im not sorry for the things i said ealier today, i really hope you can take a step back and think. Im tired. I shall just end off here.

Ciaos.

2009-07-10T20:22:00.000-07:00

Dear Orange,

I had an unusual dream last night. DRACULAS! When i woke up this morning, i got really curious about the existance of such a monster, so i googled. No. draculas dont exist at all! They are just fictional characters created by movie directors and storytellers. But the dream seemed so real!

I remember it was very late at night and a large group of us, about 30 people, people whom i have never seen before, were sitting in a large circle in the middle of a forest. I was recollect very clearly that i was sitting with lim,yx and yy. The overall in charge were teaching us the 5 steps to kill a dracula if we encounter one. She said,
"First, tilt your head 45degrees, open your mouth like a retard and stare into blank space; to confuse the dracula",
"Then, tie up your fringe so that you resemble the draculas"(they r females btw),
"Third, draw out your flashlight and shine it into the dracula's eyes",
"Then immediately push the dracula down with all your strength",
"Finally, take out your gun and shoot her"

WOW!I was totally overwhelmed! I have to kill the dracula?(anywae, i always fail to realise that what is happening is just a dream). So i got rally panicky then. Was thinking of backing out from this mission or smth.
Then next thing i know, our team leader brought us to this classroom where a full length oval shaped mirror stands at a corner.
She then told us," After we enter the mirror, you are on your own"
THen she disappeared into the mirror. OMG> The rest of us entered one by one.

The place in the mirror was absolutely eerie. One moment, the silence is deafening. The next, a couple of poliecars and ambulance arrived. We heard that someone was injured or killed or smth.
To sum it up, it is just extremely terrifying. Maybe im a coward or what, but my friends were so calm and collected in the dream! Lim even taught me how to fire from the gun.

Somehow the dream ended while the 4 of us were walking down a desolated lane by a roadside and we saw a shadow in front of us. TOO BAD LUH. But its really a good thing, if not i migh just get killed and die in my dreams. HAHA!

So when i woke up, i told my mum bout this dream and she said that if i was a movie director, i could have make it big! HEHE.

Loves,
cjiam

a day filled with vibrance and youthfulness

2009-07-06T06:56:00.000-07:00

Dear Orange,
YOUTH DAY!! Hehe i should be full of youthfulness today,,well in fact i am always cheerful and enthusiastic about life every single day! But anywae, to match up to e occasion, i decided to cycle from my house to my ah gong's house. Both the going and return journey were equally exciting. I got honked by a car, nearly knocked into a tree, a pillar and even a woman! OPPS! My hand really has no power for maneuvering the bike. Somemore, it started raining halfway-.-

Still managed to reach my ah gong's house ultimately. My sunflower seeds didnt germinate at all! Haiz..i need green fingers! Anywae, was flipping through the photo albums at the ah gong's house and happen to chance upon all my aunties and my mum's photos. Oh my! They look really slim and pretty back then! Time has really robbed them of their YOUTH! HAHHA! Hmm..i wonder how i will look like in 20 years time..:D

Actually was ready to rush back home for bball but the rain didnt stop. Haiz..so ended up watching ice age 3 at jp with leon. Pathetic right! Everyone else pangseh:S
OMG I LAUGHED LIKE MAD! THE MOVIE'S HILARIOUS! AND CUTE! And even abit touching towards e end...

Yesterday night my sister came home with a extremely tiny kitten. Never thought that i would be so close to a kitten!! Cats have all along been my number 1 fear. But the kitten looked so so small, even smaller than my palm; its so very fragile, just like a newborn baby. The heart wrenching thing is that she is constantly searching and calling for her mum..Poor little thing. It was e first time i see an animal tear. And i didnt know they sneeze! Anywae, shes now safely at my sis's bf's house. Sleep tight tonight girl!:D

K! i Shld be gng soon. There's sch tmr! Since i shld have enjoyed myself enough since cts, i ought to start working towards 'A' lvls from tmr onwards!! JIAYOU!

love, cjiam:))

back

2009-07-03T09:18:00.000-07:00

Hello Orange! Im back!
Came back from a jog at around 8pm. Then started cooking my vegetable soup. It was not bad for a first timer!! My family finished almost the whole pot, together with the pasta!:D Heheh..i guess im quite successful yay!
Anywae,..i shall upload the pictures!

Does this look familiar?? Its the railway bridge beside KAP!

Our starting point..

Embarking on e journey

Erning being all excited about the granite.

We are in malaysia!

The equipments used to control the train signals look like weapons!

I LOVE OUR POSES HERE!

I had to rush like mad to climb onto the pile of detached wooden railway track coz self timer's only 10seconds!

We both thought that this shot's quite artistic :)

The train's coming!!

And gone in a second:(

Departing..

Our next stop; The metalwalkway at Alexandra road!

OMG the height..*faints*

Spot the sea!

The abandoned school compound!!!!

The lampost i like alot ^^

Our not so successful jump shot :S

I like this!

Finally at Henderson waves!

Our heart

Very nice right! We were lying down on the protruding part of the wave:P

me and erning <33

Finally at Mount Faber!!

And before i go..

k gtg sleep!
gdnight:D

My special date with li erning

2009-07-02T10:01:00.000-07:00

HELLO HELLO ORANGE!

I AM SUPER HIGH TODAY!
Me and erning have finally embarked on our journey to bukit timah railway station!

Its quite interesting to see why the railway track leading from woodlands should divide into 3 tracks at the station then join back again when it heads off towards tanjong pagar. Sadly, we cannot find the track that leads to the abandoned one at clementi. And the rundown and miserably small railway station fell short to our expectations:( Nevertheless, we had a great time! Feels great to be walking on the railway track and in the desolated little jungle:P We even saw and felt the train come and go past! Woohoo!! The "too-toot" sound and the comforting and chivalrous gust of wind blowing against our faces as it drove past...

After we left the railway, erning suggested going to vivo. So we waited at the bustop at kap for 61. It was a long wait. In the end, we alighted at alexanda road instead of vivo-.- thanks to ms li erning ah. So then we began our second phase of exploration.
This time we walked even more. 3 hrs. Oh man i nearly starved to death. But it was worth it!! We started off at the metal walkway at alexandra road. That was still alright. The weather's great, the scenery's fantastic, just that when i looked down, i can feel my legs shake.
We were deceived by the signboard! It says 2.6km walk to mount faber but it felt more like a 20km walk. BUt at least with the help of the map plus our superb sense of direction, we didnt lose our way! Hehe:D Plus along the way, we chatted and sang(abit), so the time passed quite quickly.

The highlight was when we spotted this really grand-looking building hidden behind a couple of trees and bushes. Although the sign says "NO ENTRY", like erning said, to satisfy our curiousity is more important than abiding the law, so we walked right in.

The first thing we saw was a large empty space, with 4 British-style lampposts in the middle. Seems to be like a carpark in front of the building..then as we got closer, there is a couple of steps leading up to a platform(i.e. e shape of a semi-circle). Looking down from the slightly raised platform and back at the large empty plot of concrete ground in front of us, we realise that it must be an assembly area of a school!
At the two ends of the platform are two flights of staircases, positioned at right angles such that our view of the building above is blocked by the huge brick wall by the staircase. The entrance to the staircases are sealed with big green plastic boards, with wire gauzes, in addition to a few smaller boards on the outside to cover up the little gap at the bottom. A new-looking triangular signboard above us says: "Area under live supervision on CCTV".
I turned to look at my dear friend. She was in deep thoughts by then, her eyes brimming with excitement. A chill went down my spine. Finally both of us came to an agreement. So we decided to enter.

Cautiously, we removed the white boards on the outside, revealing a 50cm by 50cm hole at the bottom corner of the blocked stairway. Erning says that it is for the watchdogs to go through and its definitely big enough for us to squeeze through. So we crawled in, making minimal noise. By the time both of us got through safely, my heart was beating furiously. OMG IT SERIOUSLY FELT LIKE A DETECTIVE STORYBOOK ADVENTURE! Looking out for each other, we climbed up the stairs with our knees and bodies slightly bent. We couldnt find the CCTVs!

Yet another empty space with a huge 3 storey building in the background loomed ahead of us. The tiles on the floor is different from the ones below.It is more expensive looking, with a shiny grey and smooth surface. To our left is a small and old little office, which i figure out is probably their security check counter. To our right is a grand looking balcony, with pink flowers blooming! And at the extreme right was a patch of unweeded grass and a small little statue in the middle. Its a really serene sight.
We continued walking around the side of the building. The doors at the first storey are sealed. Up at the second floor is what seem like an auditorium, not exactly huge, but decent enough to hold at least a hundred people. Looking further up, I observed a small corridor and probably a number of classrooms at the side.
So that confirmed our suspicion. This place has to be British school compound constructed way back in the 1950s!! THe exterior of the building, with its clear long transparent glass windows and the simple classic white and brown strokes bordering the corners and borders of the building tells us that it definitely has to be owned by the westerners! COOL!
After 10minutes of inspection around the place, we decided that it was time to go! When we were about to descend the stairs, i spotted two CCTV cameras directly in front of us.
HHEEHE. But good thing we managed to left before any security guards came to catch us!:D

So both of us reluctantly left the abandoned compound. WHEW! WHAT A DISCOVERY!
We then continued on our journey towards mount faber, taking a few stops in between. One particular stop to note is this very long bridge(e Henderson waves) made up of many many long wooden planks. We saw a couple taking wedding shoots there. SO COOL!
I felt really near the sky! The sky was a clear blue cushioned by white fluffy clouds:) it was a great sight!

From there, it was a long and steep walk up to mount faber. A couple of cyclists cycled past us. HAHA.. some of them lagged behind, looking really exhausted. HEHE. My energy level was equally low at that time. ONCE AGAIN, THANKS TO ERNING'S GREAT IDEA. After almost 30minute of walking, we finally passed by the JEWEL BOX. YAY!! WE HAVE REACHED OUR DESTINATION! Sat at a bench to look at the cable cars go by one by one from mount faber, to world trade centre, all the way to sentosa.

Then we began on the last bit of our journey. This time was downhill by the Marang Trail. WOOTS! FINALLY WE ARE GOING DOWN! After what seems like eternity, we reached the bottom! OMG!!! YAYY!! Our legs were like jelly already.

Immediately walked to the hawker centre and makan. My gastric juices were already digesting part of my stomach away! OH MANs! SEE lar erning, i got gastric pain coz of u!!:P

After makan, walked to vivo( our supposed destination). Only spent less than an hour there. We were at the national geographic looking at travel guidebooks, paintings etc. Spent 20minutes looking at the huge Atlas book. YEP! WE shall travel together in the future. TO MANY MANY PLACES! :DDD

Finally, when we got on bus 97. We looked through all the photos we took for the day and we both know that we are so gonna miss 2/7/09! IT was a superb, fantastic, GREAT GREAT DAY WITH ERNING! <3333

I hope to embark on more of such adventures in the future. Oh man! THIS IS MY DREAM ISNT IT? TO BE AN EXPLORER..HEHe! MAY IT TURN INTO REALITY!

P.s. im going to cook up a meal for my family!(i hope i still rmb how to cook!)
SO goodbye!!

loves,
cjiam

holidays

2009-06-21T06:29:00.000-07:00

YO! Orange,
HEHHE i just came back from a exciting and bumpy cycling trip around my housing estate. I started off as slow as a mountain tortise and ended off like a decent mountain bike. HHAHA. IT was damn fun! I had a great time cheering,singing and shrieking(coz of the cracks and humps on the path)
WOOHOO!! "You look so beautiful tonight.."(to my dear bike)

Holidays have been both enjoyable and guilt planting.
Outings with friends and family, occasional library mugging sessions, jogs at chinese garden and econs tuition.
Life's been a WOOHOO! HAHA:D im sort of addicted to this "adjective".
But im currently in a bad position to say that..iv got alot of revision uncompleted. Im in for commontest. From monday onwards im gonna grit my teeth and go full force!! Really dont want to fail!!

Anywae, back to what iv been doing so far..

I went to sakura at science centre with JQ,LY and SH :D
Ate extremely unglamly and even screamed at SH's and JQ's ghost stories.

Memories of us..

And some of food..

The following day, i went orchard to shop with Nat!! :DD
I love going out with her coz we always end up at either Kino or Borders:DD

Yesterday was our once in half a year family outing with uncle and aunty and of course our 3 cute little cousins and 1 giant. I LOVE THEM! We ate, shop, played, eat again, went arcade, then headed home around 11pm.

Our darling and little princess, SHUYUN!:D

COUSINS~

We were teasing our little cousin Royce with Shuyun! He was so shy!!

Our final stop was the merry-go-round.

And finally,me and mei <33333333333

The mrt ride home was looonnggg. Sengkang is damn far!!

Now. Time to go. Hope my scan tmr is clear. Another needle down after tmr!!! BASHIA!

BYe orange!! :D

loves, cjiam

i hope this is a visually appealing post

2009-05-29T01:21:00.001-07:00

Dear Orange,

because JJQ insists that my blog is dead, i shall attempt to revive it haha! This post is probably gonna be visually engaging for you..haha i shall spam photos!

Things to be happy about:
First,
ENVIROFEST IS FINALLY OVER! Feels slightly empty but also much less busy. The event's awesome!! Turn out rate was high! The kids were extremely cute! Greenlinkers became more bonded in the process as fantastic! Im glad i got to know more of the juniors better:) And i made a new kid friend too! Her name's erika(vivien's best friend). I miss her! Hhaha..i suddenly realise that i havent been studying for a long time! But i guess the time spent on planning, organising and executing Envirofest2009 is absolutely worthwhile! Its definitely a dream come true for all of us! Im so very proud to be in NJC Greeenlink!:DD
THE PRCOESS...

Our children's playground

All the mosaic pieces

Plant the greenbean!

Making the pledge..

The classy transparent tube which yannqi and huiyong had a hard time digging out from the corner of GL store.

Our mascott's definitely famous!

e slackers!

Envirofest com!

Random shots( e little girl's erika!)

Greenlink group photos!

The last day of envirofest coincided with my Ah Gong's birthday! Bought him a nice checked shirt!:DD
WoW! Our entire extended family was there! HAHa! Siaoyan jie with her bf, Weisian gor with his new gf(also called jia min!), xy, wx, wan jie ling, eryi, dayi, ahpo yi, da gu and his family and my family. And i made a new friend. HAHA! Didnt noe he existed until today. My ahgong's brother's grandson:)
The buffet lunch was delicious! Especially the bobo chacha!:D Had a fun time chatting

After that, rushed down to toa payoh for envirofest. Envirofest ended really beautifully with a prize giving ceremony by us! I was the prize giver(NJ lion mascott) Nearly suffocated during my 10minutes in the costume. Somemore, was harrassed by this insane guy towards the end. Scared out of my wits.

Me e mascott!

Anways, that marks the end of cca. And the start of mugging. Sad.

Second thing to be happy about:
Finally met up with Jian Qing after so long! She brought me to eat mango strudel at this really cosy little shop. IT TASTED GREAT! YUMYUM! After that, went to clementi to collect my umbrella which i left at Sumo house the day b4. Walked around abit then headed for home with the 2 thick books of rj gp notes.

Third thing to be happy about:
Greenlink's finally going to have an outing with the juniors! Tuesday after exco interview, we ate lunch at sumohouse, then headed to my house to play cards. At ard 6plus left for west coast park to meet sherlene. Almost done with planning!:D

Us at west coast

Fourth thing to be happy about:
SISC concert was superb! SHort and sweet! Its really heartwarming to see the smiles on the faces of the malay and Indian dancees! They did a great great job! And western dancers were awesome!! The emo-ness really seeped into eeach and every part of me. Not to forget the harmonica band and guzheng! The music was great! And finally angklung!! I love the ending song! And must mention this..Ross's smile was as wide as a river mouth. Haha!
Had an enjoyable time with vivien and Yuhui towards the end. Shouting like mad!

SISC Photos

the dances

Easy to spot ross right!:D Damn cute!

me with e performers!:D

Fifth thing to be happy about:
Me, my sis, Navin and my mum are currently working on a plan. Hope it goes on well! Jia you everyone! PEACE!:)

Sixth:
TODAY'S YX'S BIRTHDAY! HAPPY BRITHDAY YUEXI!:D

Last but not least,
Holidays have officially started for me! YAY! I am going to work really hard!!!!
KAMBATEH!!:D

Hhaha..oh yay! Iv finally finish saying what i wanna say. Took me nearly 2 hours to upload the photos! Hope you'll like it! JQ! Haha!

Ciaos!!
CjiaM:D

my rat race

2009-05-20T23:01:00.000-07:00

Orange orange!!

I miss blogging. Haha. Weird. What have i been doing?

We had a class outing on labour day! Watched 17Again. Awesome!
Ate dinner at New York New York for the very first time!(i noe im a noob haha) The wafer plus icecream dessert tasted like heaven! OH MY!:DD

Mother's day was fun! We had energy audit in the morning, wished alot of mothers at marsiling area.
Envirofest com ate lunch at KFC then rush off to Bukit timah to collect the recyclables.
Then my family came n fetch me for tuition. Was 10minutes late. Quite expected, we sort of lost our way with me and my dad's superb sense of direction. U-turned twice!
Made mum a really nice card.
Of coz it was my idea!:)
I rmb since primary sch, i was always the one who came up with silly ideas to celebrate mother's day. When i was in primary4, I rmb, we put up a dance item(me n my sis) hhaha i choreographed! Then primary 5, we had a fashion parade( i made my bro cross-dress lol!) Finally primary 6 was e last time i think. We had a concert. Sang songs, acted..haha hilarious.

Alright. So this year, we gave her this really big card and an umbrella:))

This is seriously the most glamorous and also the largest card iv ever made in my whole life!!
Had Zhi cha for mother's day dinner. Yum yum! Hmm...but i think ended up, my mum paid for the dinner. Nvm.Mummy! Nxt time when i earn money il treat u to a sumptuous meal!:D

Iv not been eating good food recently. No time. Except for yesterday. Went ikea to buy stools with greenlink ppl for Envirofest. Wow. the furnitures n designs of the stuff there is fantastic! I dont mind working there!:))
Anywae, we ate nice caramel icecream n the famous swedish meatballs! YUM!

Im very looking forward to our event this weekend!
Anyone who is free, pls come n support NJC Greenlink at Envirofest2009!
Its at Toa Payoh HDB hub, sat n sun.
11am-8pm
My first time organising an event.. i really hope our efforts will pay off! Before i end off, i wanna thank YannQi for being such a great help in leading our team with me! And also, our Envirofest committee: Jocelyn, Jacy, Mingxiu(thanks for joining us at envirofest meetings!) and also Hanyan, Pingping, Wenda and Edrei! Thank you guys! LOVES!

Btw, iv been having consecutive nightmares for a couple of nights already! Haizz..y??
Really freaked me out..
First, i dreamt of dead bodies and coffins, then i dreamt of a tsunami right at my doorstep. Then the third night was the worst! I dreamt of a lady having an abortion!!I saw the whole process! BLOOD!
I nearly vommitted when i woke up!
:S issit a bad omen? are these dreams trying to tell me smth?
I spent quite sometime trying to decipher them and finally came up with a logical explanation.
It goes like this:
Someone's going to die on my birthday(26dec)and it'll be a really fatal death due to a major operation.
TRAUMATISED!!!!!

P.s Mei, i dunno y, but im so glad that we r back to how we were like in the past:) I love you!

need to rush off!
Cjiam

long post

2009-04-28T03:49:00.000-07:00

New blog song again!! I LOVE IT!!

Lucky--Jason Mraz
Do you hear me,
Talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair

though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh

Feel super xing fu for the characters in the song haha! Very sweet!=))

Dear Orange,
Almost 2 weeks since i last updated! Haha. Have been super bz the past 2 weeks and looking at the list of notes scribbled down on my calender, there's definitely more to come. HAIZZ.

Last week i went to attend a meeting with all the very strong environmental advocates. Really amazed by how fast and well they can think and speak. Hmm..iv got a lot more to learn!
And i realise that the adults outside are so unlike those in NJC. They are much more flexible and willing to accept any challenges to their viewpoints. Yep..rigidity and pure stuborness is smth i have to refrain from learning from adults in NJC. Time to update yourselves and learn to empathise with people! Life is not only about enhancing your own image and achievements. Seriously, adults in NJC should start to be more encouraging. What if certain ccas didnt manage to get the desired gold for syf? I feel that it is only right that u at least mention and credit them for their hardwork. If you see results so importantly, i dont think u even deserve to work in a school at all. NJC will collapse sooner or later. TIME TO REFLECT.

Sorry, sidetracked.
Hmm..ok. Back on to what i was saying. Geog lecture tests are sure flunk one. Econs test coming up. I NEED TO START STUDYING FOR IT! Math lecture test next week..hmm..
this one cannot fail. JIAYOu!

CHeers!!!=DD

I realise im starting to enjoy taking pictures more and more!! HAHA!
Last saturday, went to Singapore River with Lin Yan. I love the scenery!=D It was nighttime of coz!
Imagine:
Walking along the river from clarke Quay, all the way to Raffles Place,
Under the shimmery light of the full moon,
With crowds of chatty and laughing people,
Rock music from clubs in the vicinity,
The voices of random baskers on the street,
Together with shrieks from people being tossed in the air.

Hahha. I had a great time. REALLY!=DD

Oh and we saw this very cute little boy in front of a big fish tank.
Hahha..and the 2 fishes in the tank! THey were like kissing each other before i took the pict..Very scandalous pair!=P

Last weekend
Friday
POnned gp lessons with all the other A02 ppl. Went to support Wq, Edwin, Pamela, Michael n Kun Ying at the SLA challenge at SMU!=D
Was quite fun! Hhaha..got to meet some exclassmates from ACJC. Oh mans..did i tell u, the whole SAJC geog unit turned up to support their schoolmates!=O

After SLA, me, Ber, Sheryl, Ross, Yuexi and Waner went Bugis to shop. Hahha..i guess we all spent alot, especially Sheryl who cannot seem to control herself!!
Was super exhausted when i finally reached home.

Saturday
Supposed to meet JQ and LY at Je lib to study at 10am. Reached at 7pm. Went home at 9pm. Hahha. Y? Coz i was helping my sis edit her PW work. Oh my!! It was quite horribly done!!=((
HHaha..at least i think after my hardwork, it looks somuch better now! Great!=D

Sunday
THE WEATHER IS KILLING ME!!! Went to run 4pm in the afternn. Wanted to sweat it out, but i ended up getting feng mo, which is like very big patches of rashes all over my body. Mostly concentrated on my face especially! So i had to give tuition a miss.

Haiz..i really ought to let my body rest.REST! And it might be possible with the upcoming labour day holiday and half day.

Mother's day is coming!!! I hope to prepare a surprise for my mum!! But what?++ i still dunno what yet. Hhaha.

On a sidenote, goodluck for all those going for syf this and next week!!
NJ students are always behind u all! Nvm bout the adults hahha!

lovesss,
cjiam

my hero

2009-04-15T08:28:00.000-07:00

Dear Orange,
im here to report what iv been doing for the past few days.Hhaha. Sounds boring.
First i must introduce to you my hero for the week.
TADA!! MY BELOVET DADDY!

Opps..sry dad=P!abit unglam.

Guess what?! Dessert stall aunty called me early saturday morning and ordered me to go to school immediately to help her open her lock=P
I was still half awake can!
Sherlene suggested i go down with a magnet and some screwdriver to try to open the lock. Haha..almost did tht. Silly me. Luckily i called my dad up!
ANd he professionally got me to dig out a hammer, a saw and a screwdriver from his 4 big tool bags.
In the afternoon, we headed down to the school canteen. Aunty was waiting for our arrival.
OPPSS!! The moment my dad saw the lock, he asked me to get him his saw.
And within 3minutes the lock was free!! OMG!! Daddy rocks!! Love him alotalot!!
Hhaha..so we rescued the cake and started eating it. Yum! Tasted exceptionally great!=D

After that, went IMM meet Erning. Walked around abit, sat down and talked a lot. Miss the great old days!
And we saw a really big and round moon that night!! Very exciting!:D

my dear friend cut her hair really short. I nearly got a shock of my life when i saw her!=OO

Sunday
Very bz day. Did work in the morning, rush down to tuition in the afternn. After tuition, rushed down to mediacorp to watch campus superstar finals. They all sang really well! Especially Ai Jia!!Omg her last song..i think i cried!=O Super gan dong.

Wednesday
Ponned school. went je library with my heavy laptop. Have to do get some work done!
JIAYOU!

Btw, im learning cantonese from my dad!!goodnight!
cjiam

good april

2009-04-10T00:10:00.000-07:00

Dear Orange,
I realise i always blog on fridays. Heehee. But today's a special friday!=) Yesterday was vivien's(hua ping) birthday!

HAPPY BIRHTDAY BIMBO!!=D

And i was incharge of buying a birthday cake to celebrate with the whole of greenlink. Hhaha..but the story of the poor cake is really devastating. Its currently still trapped in the fridge of the drinks stall, resting desolately at the very bottom layer. How could i have forgotten that aunty will lock up the fridge before she leaves!!=(
Everybody went home with an empty stomach because of me=((
And whats more's that we tried to pry open the lock using a safety pin which broke into half. So the other half is stuck in the lock.Opps..if aunty cannot open the fridge, then have to get the locksmith down to do it! Haiyo..this is the dumb-est thing i've ever done. NVM!

us with Matthew and Lily from NParks

I never have thought that greenlink can be so stressful! Organising an external event is really not as simple as i thought. Dealing with grownups from the outside world is super intimidating. Well..i'll just take it as an experience=)

After gl meeting, went to LOT1 with Sherlene, Kaisheng and Derek to celebrate Viv's bdae=) Ate at kobayashi. I thought the kimchi soup was quite good=D
After that walked around LOT1 abit and then home sweet home.

I got A for pw. Hhaha. Weird coz my heartbeat is not fluctuating. I expected a B. Haiz. Singapore's education system is making me numb to all these. The older i get, the less i care. Yea, so lets not talk about grades.

Yesterday i had a couple of dreams.
I dreamt that i ate the smelly toufu!! OMG it tasted GREAT!!
I dreamt that aunty opened the fridge door for me..haha. and the big fruitcake was in good condition=D
And the final one i couldnt remember. It was super long though.

Hhaha..really feeling lethargic from dreaming every night. Well..its fun to dream, but really health degenerating!!

Btw, im going to support Jia Min at the finals for campus superstar on Sunday!Excited! I hope she'll win!! JIAMIN JIAYOU!!=D

loves,
cjiam

Lumos 2009

2009-04-03T09:59:00.000-07:00

A02!!

Chenxi and Daniel, e 2 person whom i practiced alot with towards e last few days

Dearest Orange,
I simply feel so 兴奋 that i cannot sleep. haha.
First, i thought e performance was great!!!!!! I mean as a whole! YAY! The 2 jh3s, Xinyi and Pavitha did really well! So did Jeremy! I can see that we all put in our best.thts what made this performace possible, a successful one!=DD

Second,my mum sayed that i was super drama n gan cheong when i was dancing. Haha.. yea..cannot control..too high when i got on stage! Anywae, i really enjoyed myself on stage,so who cares right!=D

Third, I am really thankful for all my friends, as well as my family who came down especially to support me!Really touched! AHH! What a pleasant surprise huh, my fellow classmates! Haha, if Yuexi didnt let e cat out of e bag, I would really be taken aback if i see u guys at Lumos! =O
Thank you ross n lim n ck from rushing down from your cca to come for e concert!
Thank you, e scandalous pair(sheryl n jiarong) of our class!
Thank you Yuexi n zifang for your support!
Thank you mum, dad n mei for coming all e way down despite being busy ppl!
Thank everyone else for your words of encouragement.
Thanks boss n lady boss for e pretty pretty sunflower!!!!!!

Last but not least, thank you Rachel and Avril,for choreographing and always being there for our practices, correcting us, encouraging us.. A BIG BIG THANK YOU.
And i wanna thank everyone in the seniors' item for making this such a wonderful dancing experience for me!

TADA..the 2 very important ppl, rachel n avril!

Haiz..im really gonna miss dancing and performing! Well.. although im super 不舍得, its time for my poor hand to rest and also time to study!

To sum up, im thankful for this opportunity to perform, as well as make new friends in e process. Most importantly, i have come to realise who really cares about me, and i really really thank god for them.
Yep despite e many sacrifices made, Lumos is on e whole a success!

This is what i mean by i believe in rainbows after rain. Iv seen mine=)

loads of love,
cjiam

2009-03-27T06:44:00.000-07:00

New blog song by Beyonce!!

HALO
Remember those walls I built
Well baby they're tumbling down
And they didn't even put up a fight
They didn't even make a sound
I found a way to let you in
But I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I got my angel now

It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
It's the risk that I'm takin'
I ain't never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
Woah...

Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You're the only one that I want
Think I'm addicted to your light
I swore I'd never fall again
But this don't even feel like falling
Gravity can't forget
To pull me to the ground again

Feels like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
The risk that I'm takin'
I'm never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo)

Halooooo ouuuu
Halooooo ouuuu
Halooooo ouuuu
Ouuuuu ouuuuu ouuuuu

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo

Dear Orange,
i simply love this song so so much. Great song to emo and to dance with. I love the choreography for Lumos. For every single songs we are dancing to.
Next Friday's going to be my very very last dance performance ever. I doubt il ever get to go on stage to perform anymore. Il miss dancing alot ALOT.
Dance made me grow.
The pain, the sweat, the joy, the teamwork, the scoldings, the compliments, the tears..everything i've been through since secondary school till now. Although i may not be a great dancer like many others, it is a fact that dance has been with me for more than nearly 10years now. Im so used to dancing that to stop doing so will be hard. Well..but my passion will never die. Hip hop rawks! So do contemp. So do chinese dance. And i wanna learn belly dancing.HA.
Alright..so im gonna put in my all for the final performance next friday. My parents will be there to..so yea! JIAYOU!=DD

Alone, is such a good time to emo. The going is gonna be tough. But brave souls like me dont give up. I hope il keep staying healthy forever. U too, my friend!=)

with lots of love,
cjiam

Passion for Geog

2009-03-20T07:57:00.000-07:00

Dear Orange,
this will be a very visually appealing post. Haha..Geography fieldtrip to Kuantan/KL is awesome!!!AWESOME!!
Well..the photographs bring you through the whole 4days 3nights the 34 of us, with the 3 teachers, our tourguide, Auntie Molly and our belovet bus driver, Mr Siva has been through.

14/3/09, 6.30
We gathered in school and headed off to the immigration checkpoints. It was a really long busride before we reached kuantan..
Along the way,

At Johor..

look at sheryl!

3 plus in the afternoon.
Arrived at Teluk Chempedak Beach.
U must ask the people around me. I was exclaiming and bouncing up and down with excitement!! I really wished this place is my home!! The crystal clear water, the white sandy beach, the blue sky, the comforting breeze and the occasional shouts and laughter from the families pinicing by the beach..I felt this strong sense of dejavu.

pretty right!!=D

The granite features we saw there.

We're really engrossed in our very first outdoor geog lesson with ms ting!=P

a very faint but beautiful rainbow=)

A few group photos!

An hour later.
We arrived at Batu Hitam Beach.

Full of basalt rocks. Our hair=messy.

Can u see! The wind was terribly strong. But i love it alot!! If i am light enough to be blown away..then i can fly!

Dinner time

We dined at this local restaurant by the beach side. I love the food!!!!!!
Especially the toufu!! I LOVE TOUFU TOUFU TOUFU!! Me, Laoda and Waner got super high after eating it!! Its the best iv ever tasted!! Soft and hot on the inside, crispy on the outside together with the layer of unknown ingredient on top of the tofu. It is totally irresistible!!

After dinner, checked in to hotel.
While Sheryl Sim catch her beauty sleep, I went to Yuexi's room to play poker cards with the Yannqi, Liwei, Weiqiang. Then we went down for a walk and me and yuexi ended up at Ross's and Waner's room. Chatted till 2plus am. Went back to my room, talked to Sheryl for awhile, then fell asleep.

15/3/09, 7am
Sheryl Sim was buzzing like a bee beside my ear. Hhaha..she took 15 minutes to get me out of bed. So we were late for buffet breakfast. YUM!! I LOVE THE FOOD!

8am

Visited the abandoned quarry site. Was drizzling the whole morning. I love the rocks!! The features are damn cool can!!=D

We climbed up the rocks!!

10 plus.
Climb up and down the cave was extremely treacherous. A major crisis in this entire geog trip!!It was pouring plus there were really strong winds. All of us were clinging dearly to our umbrellas as well as the railings because the steps were really steep and slippery. Im glad we made it up!! I love caves! Hhaha..i still remember my dream to become an explorer when i was young!!=DD

cool right!!

Arrived at the river around 2pm after having chicken rice on the bus. I had fun with my group trying doing all the measurements in the water. HEE!! And the riverbed felt like natural massage for our feet because of the coarse quartz stones=P

I couldnt balance!! Hhaha..me and Laoda made a fool of ourselves!

Debrief back at the hotel LOTUS ROOM lasted for 2hrs!
But it was worth it!! We managed to map out the whole river with the combined effort of all the 6 groups!! We were all jumping for joy!! Even Ms Ting got really excited!! Hehee very very happy!!=D

Anywae, we were all starving. Finally got to eat buffet dinner at around 9pm. That was really late dinner for me!! I love the fried rice and curry!=D

After dinner, went Lim's room with Waner and Ross. Camwhored quite abit.

16/03/09, 6am
Had a hard time waking up. Hahah..i realised tht my dear roommate is not only an early bird, but also a v patient person. How inefficient can i get!!
Buffet breakfast again. And as expected, i ate ALOT. Shant elaborate. But i love koko crunch with milk=)

Setted off to KL.

12pm
Went up the Merdeka tower. Hmm..the view wasnt as splendid as i expected, but it was really interesting to observe the urban structure of KL city!!

The overall view from the fourth tallest building on earth.

Me, YX and ross

THen it was time for the visit to the lower income housing.
My group got to interview this tamil family with 4 children. Banu and Liyana did a really good job!! Basically, the house is quite rundown, poor security and sanitation. Also, the river floods every month into their house, with the roof leaking everytime it rains.. Somemore they were having difficulties with their finance and the govt is doing really little to help.
BUT BUT, they were all really contented with their life. When i ask them whether they're happy, all they said was that as long as they have each other, they're satisfied enough.
I was so so touched. And so very happy for them!! I hope the little girl will really grow up to be a doctor!! Then she can help to bring the family out of poverty!!:D

Dinner time
Dinner was at Hartz Chicken at Merdeka square. All the girls were super efficient and for the first time, finish our food faster than they guys. Guess why?? Coz it was shopping time!! HAHA!!=D
Me, Sheryl, Ross and Elvin were really superb. 5min to a shop. Ended up buying 1 blouse for my mum, 1 shirt for my bro and a top for my sis and nothing for myself!! And somemore, we only had 30seconds left to the time we were supposed to meet. And so the 4 of us embarrassingly flew down the escalators from the fourth to the first storey!! But we were still late..and had to pay a fine of $1. HAHA.

The pinnacle of the twin tower at night.

9pm
Reached hotel Equatorial. We were all terribly tired! Its really a miracle that we were all able to sit through the ordeal of 2hrs of human geog debrief!! Even the guai ones were falling asleep during the debrief!!=D

11.30pm
Checked in. Bathed and ate cup noodles. Was really afraid when i suddenly recalled the horror movie i watched on friday night b4 the trip!! I really think that our hotel room's eerie!!!!! So listened my MP3 to sleep.

17/03/09 , 7.30am
Today i took less than 10min to get out of bed!! Got improvement! Thanks Sheryl!=D
Went down for buffet breakfast. WOOTS!!! I LOVE THE PANCAKES!=DDD

Some group photos

8plus
Setted off with my group to take the monorail. Me, Lengshan and Liyana started counting the number of pedestrians and vehicles when we reached the station while Banu, kok wah and Elvin walked around the area to observe. Hhaah..counting is indeed a job for slackers.

I love my group!=)

My aunty roommate.=DD

Then it was time to go=(((((((((
PIcked up some Malaysian food products on the way home.
7pm sharp
Reached the bustop outside NJ.
Cabbed home.
My sis and mum were waiting for me at the shelter ahha.. Yay!! Im so glad iv them to carry my stuff for me!!

-----HOME SWEET HOME------

My reflections:
1) I love sceneries and landscapes.
2) I am someone who seriously cannot stand dirty toilets! I nearly puked!!
3) Like Sheryl Sim said, I have always been living in an illusion that im a very effiecient person when im not. Thats y im always late for school!
4) I have great friends who helps me carry my bags around=)
5) I am someone who gets easily happy for people who are happy. HA.
6) My future job will certainly have something to do with social work coz i love meeting new people and helping people.
7) Iv made many new friends during this geog trip.
8) First time i see Ms Ting laugh so heartily! I am happy!=D
9) I LOVE GEOGRAPHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
10) I think i sound really childish, but i dont care.

To end of this post..

Love 08a02, Love the people who have gone through this really meaningful journey with me. I'll never ever forget this trip!!!=DDD

19/03/09
Went vivo to watch movie with my primary school buddies Leon, Darrell and Nigel. Hhaa..although the movie wasnt really nice, i think the company is great!! Hope to meet up soon!=D

I guess orange, you must be really exhausted like i am now. But this post is gonna be some worth my time!!

Ciao!!
Cjiam

memories

2009-03-07T20:50:00.000-08:00

Dear Orange,
I love my family. Although we are not as privileged as others, I think that we're really unique. Unlike a lot of my friends whose parents are businessmen and women, who need to travel alot, my parents are at home most of the times. Although it meant alot more nagging, I am really glad and thankful that they're always there for the 3 of us throughout our whole growing up process.

My home is the place where i really get to feel warmth and love. I love the things we do together! I remember when i was younger and we still had a car, we used to go to the Botanic Gardens every Sunday morning for a walk. On saturday nights, we would visit the Singapore River at least monthly then head to Geylang for delicious frog leg porridge. Although we dont get to go overseas very often, like many families do, I really enjoy the precious moments of family bonding time we had together.
We do really stupid and idiotic things to irritate others at times under the leadership of our dad. Hahha..so now people who know me should know why i like to tap on the shoulders of little boys and then turn away like it wasnt me who did it. Haha!

Another extaordinary trait of my family is that we love to all cramp in the master bedroom at night to enjoy the air conditioner. Then my dad and mum will start telling us about their childhoods, which was really interesting to hear!=) Well.. we're still doing it now.

And did i mention? My brother loves to fart. Many times, he would plant his butt right in front of my face while I am really engrossed watching channel 8 drama and then start farting. Oh my it was totally yuck! You wouldnt want to know what my dad does with his fart! haha!

Oh! And one very peculiar habit we all have is doing weird things. For example singing karaoke in the middle of the night during which my parents will be the jugdes while the 3 of us sing the oldies.( that explains why i like old songs so much and my parents' poor judgement explain y people sometimes cannot tolerate my singing) haha!=D

And i remember my ambition was to be a teacher. I even opened my own tuition centre at home. My siblings would be my students and i would prepare notes before every lesson. It worked quite well!=P hahha..i still keep the notes i made for them(which was totally nonsense, btw)

Hhaha..talking about fond memories we shared, there's really countless!!
But now that we all have grown up, alot of problems we would never have thought would occur came.
I really hope you will one day see how much mum and dad have done for you. And i hope that that very day, you will not have any regrets.

It is rather odd for me to come up with this post all of a sudden. But yesterday, i was looking through some photos and was reminded of all these. These are such great old times which i'll never ever want to forget, thats y im putting it here. Im sure that this blog will never be forever, but well..at least memories do last me for a lifetime. And they keep me going, wanting to make more of these beautiful moments out of my life.=)

with love,
cjiam

because you loved me

2009-03-03T02:06:00.000-08:00

Because you loved me
for all those times you stood by me
for all the truth that you made me see
for all the joy you brought to my life
for all the wrong that you made right
for every dream you made come true
for all the love i found in you
i'll be forever thankful baby
you're the one who held me up
never let me fall
you're the one who saw me through
through it all
you were my strength when i was weak
you were my voice when i couldn't speak
you were my eyes when i couldn't see
you saw the best there was in me
lifted me up when i couldn't reach
you gave me faith 'coz you believed
i'm everything i am because you loved me
you gave me wings and made me fly
you touched my hand i could touch the sky
i lost my faith, you gave it back to me
you said no star was out of reach
you stood by me and i stood tall
i had your love i had it all
i'm grateful for each day you gave me
maybe i don't know that much
but i know this much is true
i was blessed because i was loved by you
you were my strength when i was weak
you were my voice when i couldn't speak
you were my eyes when i couldn't see
you saw the best there was in me
lifted me up when i couldn't reach
you gave me faith 'coz you believed
i'm everything i am
because you loved me
you were always there for me
the tender wind that carried me
a light in the dark shining your love into my life
you've been my inspiration
through the lies you were the truth
my world is a better place because of you
you were my strength when i was weak
you were my voice when i couldn't speak
you were my eyes when i couldn't see
you saw the best there was in me
lifted me up when i couldn't reach
you gave me faith 'coz you believed
i'm everything i am
because you loved me

Dear Orange,
roadwalk on saturday was as expected. Went to celebrate Nat's birthday at lot1 after that. Ate pepper lunch for the first time!! Their pepper chicken rice is delicious!! I love the taste of the rice, with cheese cum sweet corn cum pepper. YUM YUM!:)We had an enjoyable afternn talking bout the great old times of sec sch life! Haha..mr tong!

Had econs tuition for the first time ever in my whole life with lim and WQ sun afternn. Still not very used to tuition since it has been a long time i started going for tuition classes during my weekends. DREAD IT! But i guess iv got no choice coz i need to work on writing econs essay!!

P.s. I really want to learn how to play the piano!! Heeheex! Today i finally learnt how to play the chorus of 2 music pieces i really like!Thanks to Jing huai and YX =D ( although i cannot really remember e fingerings..nvm i shall secretly practice during monday breaks when everyones having lessons!)

with love,
cjiam

time to reflect

2009-02-23T06:17:00.000-08:00

Dear ORange,
it has been yet another sleepless night for me. BED BUGS!! Its really scaring the wits out of me!! Imagine how it feels to get into bed and start visualing the numerous brown little pests creeping at the darkest corner of the wooden frame. It totally spoils my sleeping mood! And whats worst to come is when it starts attacking you. You wake up in the morning finding your whole body covered with little red spots, someetimes even large red patches of bug bites. Thats how vicious the bugs can be!! DAMN ITCHY!!
Its not as if I am a dirty wild pig who attracts all the most disgusting things in the world! Where did these bugs come from!! HELP!!!=(((((((((((((

Alright..enough of these unhappy stuff.
So Monday dawn, i was browsing the net and happened to chance upon a website of cancer blogs. My next instinct was to read through every single entry these cancer patients posted. Their stories deeply touched my heart. Furthermore, they have like a support network for each of the blogger. After every post, the supporters(other cancer patients) will give their comments, comfort, encouragement etc. I am greatly moved by how complete strangers can establish such unique bonds through such extraordinary means.
After i read the entire cancer journey of this particular 20year old girl who passed on about 2 years after she was diagnosed, I came to realise how fortunate I am. At least I only need surgeries, not chemo nor radiation. At least I still have my not-so-pretty hair haha. At least i still have a whole load of time to fufil all my dreams when she, was deprived even of the most fundamental human right, to grow up as a woman and be a mother of 2 kids. Its really depressing to read about her death, but yet on a lighter note, i must say that she was a really inspiring writer. Her optimism and her strong fighting spirit, even after she was sent to a hospice, even after she is clearly aware of her imminent death, has indeed influenced many around her!
Yep! I need to be stronger. As strong as she is. This is what life is about isn't it? We are presented with many obstacles along the way and the only way to strengthen ourselves both mentally and physically is to tackle and overcome these barriers. Just like how a raw and unattractive stone can be polished into a shiny and expensive gem through hardwork, we humans need to constantly work to improve ourselves.

This is adapted from one of the entries:

"When the sun rises I will be strong
When the first rays of sun hit the horizon I will be strong
When a friend needs me I will be strong
When you need encouraging I will be strong

That is when I will be strong. Not tonight. Not right now."

To sum up this post, I hope that all you people out there will..
TO THE BEST OF YOUR ABILITY, WITH EVERY OUNCE OF ENERGY AND WITH EVERY FIBER OF YOUR BEING…LIVE…DO NOT WASTE A SECOND DYING. WE ARE ALL DYING. SPEND EVERY MOMENT LIVING.

with lots of love,
cjiam

drained

2009-02-21T08:22:00.000-08:00

Dear Orange,
this week has been super stressful! Math is killing me. My econs totally cannot make it. Im so retarded in chem. Oh no..im so dead.

I bet lots of people received that stupid message about terrorism in bugis. Dont worry its a hoax. Nth happened because og21 was there and everyones back home safely! Steamboat at "tian tian huo guo" is really enjoyable!=D I really laughed my guts out..so did e others! E most jing dian ren wu is Lin Yao!! Hhaha..first he really eats nonstop. Second, the way he speak is is hilarious! Hhahahha!! And i realised we've got a few girls with v infectious laughter. Matilda, Meichi and Kah Yee!!=D Ok..so we were all kept very entertained throughout the night!
LOVE OG21!!
But sadly, theres no such thing as all play no work. Tmr shall be my mugging day! Bashia!

Alright..its late n i guess its time for bed!
Here's smth for u:
"Now i lay me down to sleep,
I pray the Lord my soul to keep.
If i should die before i wake,
I pray the Lord my soul to take."

with love,
cjiam

weekends

2009-02-16T00:32:00.000-08:00

Dear Orange,
it has been a busy week last year. From trying really hard to catch up with schoolwork..to supplementary lessons, geog test..making valentines day card..
Friday
V day celebrations in school is not as fun as when i was in acjc, but well overall it is not bad la...with edwyna at the interact booth bursting almost every single balloon shes trying to fill with helium gas. Hahah..i must really emphasise my fear of sudden loud noises! The whole time i had my hands covering my ears then whenever one ballon burst il scream as loud.=(
I wanna thank firstly my class guys for being so sweet! They bought each of the girl in class in red rose each(from mini toons i think). And they gave each of us a personalised badge. Mine really describes me v well. I will say whatever that comes across my mind. In other words, v direct, never think b4 i say, cannot hide my whatever im thinking about at all.Hahah thanks ah guys!
Next, i love e cute post-its sheryl and ber gave me. Hahha..u all know me so well=) And ying's cookies! The way she packaged our presents is damn pretty and attractive can! Ying, if u open a shop selling hand made accessories il surely go and support de!The cookies ross made is delicious!
All in all, i would like to thank everyone who made my v day celebrations so enjoyable!=D

Well..so when i got home, i passed dad a red rose which he gave to mum as v day present. Hahha..my mum was really elated when she saw it.. haha all thanks to me ah dad..how shld u repay me! Hahha..and my mum thinking that its really a gift my dad bought really took care of the rose v weell haha..what use cotton wool, water and toilet roll( to supposrt the stem). AW!

And the best gift iv received is a li shang wang lai gift from my best laughing partner. Hahha.. his handicraft is really too good for a guy la..Thanks for the pop up card!! Really nice!!

Ok..and my sister's v day gift from her bf! Blue roses! COOL RIGHT!

Saturday
V day is spent with my family. went to new york skin care coz my mum say theres a free trial. Was quite a devastating day for all of us. Wont elaborate y. So i had free facial which was damn painful. I swear il never go back again. Dont understand y e tai tais say tht facial is for relaxation. They're totally mad. Watched a night movie on channel U. The ending is really v "fa ren shen xing". So love isnt tht simple afterall. Love is blind.Often, u can never see who really loves u and who are deceiving u. The world of love is always so contradictory and not for innocent ppl like me haha! FULLSTOP.

Sunday
Mugging at je lib with jq n ly. Didnt do much. Was chatting most of the time. Got told off by this indian guy sitting beside us somemore!=(
My dad's a nice guy! He brought me homecooked fan cai and tang for my lunch.

Monday
Alot of shocking events actually happened over the weekends! I am totally overwhelmed!!

Oh i came across a very interesting book on psychology at je lib. It says:
"Overall, more than two thirds of the emotions experienced in dreams are negative--involving fear, anxiety sadness, guilt."
Very true for me! So b4 i say "sweet dreams" to others, i really shld think twice.

signing off,
cjiam

viva la vida

2009-02-08T05:37:00.000-08:00

Dear Orange,
the past week have been absolutely the best in 2009. I enjoyed Orientation 2009 so so much! All thanks to my fellow OGLS: Kahy yee, matilda, yuxi and sean! And not to forget my belovet kids from OG21!!
I think our OG totally rock!!
I'll never forget the fun moments we had at the station games, the external hunt, show down and last but not least, dance party! Its really great to know u ppl! It was really fun cracking jokes, cheering n playing with u guys. Well..we did lots of lame things..like playing black magic on the mrt..playing "i never" and getting all excited.
Haii..theres too much to say. Okay..i just summarise.
I LOVE OG21!
Oh and i would like to thank all my kids for the card!! So touched..you guys are fantastic!=D
Saturday

Went to my neighbour's malay wedding in the afternn after which me, my mum and dad proceeded to the temple to give offerings. There was e statues of the 12 animals outside the temple and my retarded dad mistook the dog and goat for the ox!! Hahha..i laughed like mad!
At ard 5plus, bused down to jp to join ly and jq. Its Jq's bdae! So we decided to bring her to the "icing room" for her to decorate her own bdae cake. Hahha! It was afun experience!! And the cake tasted good! The final product was not too bad i think=)
We ate dinner at long john then went home.
Played mahjong with my family when i reached home. Hhaha! Super funny!

Sunday
Went clementi meet JQ first thing in the morning. Hhaha we were sitting in subway at the new mall when this boyboy started using an imaginary gun to shoot me. He was like "BANG BANG BANG!" Okay..so i played with him..v entertaining!!=D
Met Aloysious in the afternn at woodlands. Thanks for teaching me econs!
Went home slept for 3 hrs.
Okay im officially a pig(sean quek! dun need to zoom in my picts to know tht im one!)

random pict took ages ago hhaha

with love,
cjiam

my weekend

2009-02-01T04:16:00.000-08:00

AT MRS LEE'S HOUSE=D

Dear Orange,
this was a rather busy weekend for me! Spent three quarter of my time mugging and one-quarter of it on outings. Hai..no choice..next week is orientation! Im gonna miss lots of lessons ..yea so must start doing my tutorials first!
Alright.
Anyway, yesterday was as lirui mentioned, "a once in a lifetime experience?" haha. Went Mrs lee's house to bai nian.OMG Nicholas shoot alot within the past year! Okay anywae, mrs lee's football table was damn fun! We all took turns to hog over it for the whole of our stay there=D
Well...Mrs Lee's didnt change much..same hairstyle, e same look on her face..now i think she's v motherly! Kept forcing us to eat her new year goodies which was damn delicious! Hahah! Although it sounds abit crazy, I miss secondary school's physics lessons with her!
Me, EN and emily left early. EN brought me to ten miles lrt station. Damn cool! Got aircon there!

Sunday
Went library mug with Linyan today. It was quite effective..haha at least i completed half the amount of work i aimed to do=P
Went home in the evening, then headed to chinese garden for a jog. Hahha..dunno y today got alot of energy! Didnt felt tired at all. Maybe coz it was very windy=D Chinese garden was quite crowded today. Anyway i went to my usual spot to take a break. Hahha! Then i saw the same uncle feeding the fishes and turtles bread! In fact there were 2 of them today!=D And the uncle gave me one big piece of bread to feed them!=D I chatted abit with the uncles while enjoying the comfort of mother nature. Hahha..so.maybe i shall go come down every sunday 5.30pm to feed the turtles with e uncle! Anyone else interested can join! But uncle says only children will get free bread for feeding( haha he considered me one!) Meaning i look v young!
Heehee

Looking forward to meeting the new batch of j1s tmr!Hahah!!!=DDD

signing off,
cjiam