Thursday, October 9, 2008

Dear Orange,
lots of things have been happening lately. First my MRI scan, and dance practice, greenlink, pw..too much to list.
Ok so the MRI scan was horrifying! Its not only the injection part!! Well..then e needle had to stay in my hand for 1hour.Initially e nurse poked into e wrong vein. Then when she was injecting e fluid some blood flowed out and it was slightly painful. So she was like.."wrong wrong place" Then i was like, "shit!!" So she removed e needle and poked into another vein. Luckily this time nothing went wrong! Then when i went for the scan, the doctor made me lie on this machine then wrapped my hand in some thick cloth, then covered me with blanket. Then there i was in the machine for 45min. AND THE WORST THING IS THAT I CANNOT MOVE AT ALL!! I was feeling super nauseous! I am not the kind of person who sleep straight head facing up. I tried to think about other things to distract me from the giddiness..like PW, my childhood, songs blah blah..But it didn't work. So i decided to finally shift my head around to make myself more comfortable. That was when i hear the machine say
" cannot, cannot, cannot". Haha..the maching is telling me not to move so that the scan can be clear! LOLS..but i did move.=D
Well..so..e mystery is..did the machine really talked? OF COZ NOT!! Its purely my hallucination=P Well..but the whole process was torturous.It was super noisy so its impossible to fall asleep..
When i went home was still feeling very nauseous..but when i thought about those people i met in the hospitals, i really think Im so much more fortunate. There was a very young girl around 4 year old with both hands bandaged up. She was crying nonstop as if in great pain! I felt so sympthetic towards her!! So young, yet suffering much more than i am. Then there's this uncle my mum and i met. He have had numerous operations on his spinalcord because of additional bones growing around it. But he is still a very optimistic and cheerful person, I felt so touched by his will to live on. Actually there are so many people suffering out there. I cannot imagine lives of those kidney failure patients. They need to poke the needles into their veins thrice weekly! And its not as if they were given a choice. They had to depend on the dialysis machine or else they'll die!=(((
I felt quite depressed after the whole hospital trip..life is so vulnerable.
Some people don't even get to enjoy theirs but others who are healthy don't even know how to enjoy theirs. Shouldn't we all just stay happy and carefree and not be too stressed up and love oour family and friends? Isn't this life?
My mummy says "Life is simple, there's no need to think too much. Take a rest when you need coz u have a much longer way to go." I love mummy! Haha..this morning she helped me do a whole body massage because of my muscle aches from dance=)
Blood is thicker than water.
Mei, thank u for your care and love. THanks for helping me out when i was feeling so stressed out by PW. I odn't show my concern as readily as you coz i am not the mushy kind. But i really love you all! Daddy, thanks for the delicious meals you whip up for us, despite having a tiring day at work. Mummy, thanks for your tender loving care and all your strands of hair which turned white from worrying over us. Di, thanks for fetching me from the bustop on tues night.
I promise to cherish my everyday with all of you, coz everyday is a gift.
Oh god..this post is getting too emotional. Ok so the doctor who did the scan for me looked like AH WANG for petes sake!!Maybe its just because i couldn't see clearly without my spectacles.
PW is going fine i believe.=) We will do our best!
I shall dedicate my next post to my friends=D
gtg sleep,
cJiaM

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jiamin=) out
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