Monday, February 23, 2009

Dear ORange,
it has been yet another sleepless night for me. BED BUGS!! Its really scaring the wits out of me!! Imagine how it feels to get into bed and start visualing the numerous brown little pests creeping at the darkest corner of the wooden frame. It totally spoils my sleeping mood! And whats worst to come is when it starts attacking you. You wake up in the morning finding your whole body covered with little red spots, someetimes even large red patches of bug bites. Thats how vicious the bugs can be!! DAMN ITCHY!!
Its not as if I am a dirty wild pig who attracts all the most disgusting things in the world! Where did these bugs come from!! HELP!!!=(((((((((((((

Alright..enough of these unhappy stuff.
So Monday dawn, i was browsing the net and happened to chance upon a website of cancer blogs. My next instinct was to read through every single entry these cancer patients posted. Their stories deeply touched my heart. Furthermore, they have like a support network for each of the blogger. After every post, the supporters(other cancer patients) will give their comments, comfort, encouragement etc. I am greatly moved by how complete strangers can establish such unique bonds through such extraordinary means.
After i read the entire cancer journey of this particular 20year old girl who passed on about 2 years after she was diagnosed, I came to realise how fortunate I am. At least I only need surgeries, not chemo nor radiation. At least I still have my not-so-pretty hair haha. At least i still have a whole load of time to fufil all my dreams when she, was deprived even of the most fundamental human right, to grow up as a woman and be a mother of 2 kids. Its really depressing to read about her death, but yet on a lighter note, i must say that she was a really inspiring writer. Her optimism and her strong fighting spirit, even after she was sent to a hospice, even after she is clearly aware of her imminent death, has indeed influenced many around her!
Yep! I need to be stronger. As strong as she is. This is what life is about isn't it? We are presented with many obstacles along the way and the only way to strengthen ourselves both mentally and physically is to tackle and overcome these barriers. Just like how a raw and unattractive stone can be polished into a shiny and expensive gem through hardwork, we humans need to constantly work to improve ourselves.

This is adapted from one of the entries:

"When the sun rises I will be strong
When the first rays of sun hit the horizon I will be strong
When a friend needs me I will be strong
When you need encouraging I will be strong

That is when I will be strong. Not tonight. Not right now."

To sum up this post, I hope that all you people out there will..
TO THE BEST OF YOUR ABILITY, WITH EVERY OUNCE OF ENERGY AND WITH EVERY FIBER OF YOUR BEING…LIVE…DO NOT WASTE A SECOND DYING. WE ARE ALL DYING. SPEND EVERY MOMENT LIVING.

with lots of love,
cjiam

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jiamin=) out
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