Saturday, January 15, 2011

Dear Orange,

School has started and I am back in hall, once again attending lectures and having meals with my hall friends, back to my usual routine of dance every thursday..
It's indeed a very enjoyable part of my uni life, but at the back of my head something just keep telling me that this is not reality.
Yesterday when I got home, problems that my family members and even my relative are facing just simply reached my hands, and there seems to be many matters unsettled. This is reality right?
Problems are unavoidable, but it really depends on how you view them as they are not necessarily detrimental. Sometimes they pose as a challenge or even a learning experience for us. And I feel that all these I am facing now will in some way or another contribute to my social work career:)

I really envy people who can voice out their feelings well. It is so hard for me to describe my thoughts and emotions to even my closest friends. And it feels terrible when you keep all the mixture of anxiety, fear, anger and sadness everything within you. Although I know when the storm is over, all these negative emotions will clear away, it is still very important to be able to express oneself!!
Really quite frusfrating to not being able to tell others exactly how I feel. And I admit that its a major flaw I have as it sorts of put up a wall/boundary between me and others, as if I am always keeping a distance.
I've gotta work on this! :)

Time to go back to my readings!
Love,
Joy

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jiamin=) out
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